• I'm at a bit of a loss at the moment. In October, my youth group went on a retreat to Bethel Christian Camp, an awesome place that I and my dear friend Rebecca seriously enjoyed. When we were there, the owner of the place, Tom, invited us both to turn in applications to be councilors that summer. We both really liked the idea, and had agreed that we were both very interested. I talked to my boss, who said that he would give me my job back when I got back from camp. One down, but so many things left to fit in. First, I don't know when I'd go visit my best friend Lizzie in West Virginia. College classes start August 23rd, but orientation starts the week before. I couldn't visit Lizzie before camp, as I'd have to be at camp May 31st and she probably won't even be done with her classes by then. I couldn't visit her after, because I'd have about a week between camp and classes, and it's absolutely necessary for me to be at home that last week. Another problem is the family reunion that will probably take place July 8th or 15th. I don't know if the Bethel people would let me have the week off or not, but I imagine the answer is no. I've got an outstanding e-mail to Tom, the owner, but that was all of two weeks ago. I'm starting to think he's not going to e-mail me back, although it is still break time by most standards. More importantly, though, I'd have to leave home to return to camp around 2 every Sunday, which would mean no youth group. My last summer to enjoy my youth group, my last summer to be in the youth band . . . gone. I'm not sure I can take that. I can take being away from my family, even missing a family reunion, but being away from youth group my last summer could be too much to bear. I could even figure out some other time to visit Lizzie, like over winter break or something. But I just don't know. Rebecca is basically dead-set on the thing, though, and I'd hate to not go at this point. I told her I was having some issues with scheduling, and she was okay with it. I know she really wants me to go, and I'm not saying I won't go, but I'm having some second thoughts. A lot of them.

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