• late at night i sometimes am searching through my mind, gradually settling down for sleep, searching through my files for a dream, and the image of my father will appear, and once again i ill feel that utter and painful emptiness... he is gone. how can he just be gone? just like that? nobody understands it - nobody in my realm of communication anyway. but it hurts that he's gone from my life forever - at least in a way that i can touch, have conversations with... i miss him. i miss him so much. "and in the end the love you take is equal to the love you make." i am currently sitting in the Coffeehouse, which is not too far from my dorm, trying to get some assignments closer to finished, or at least more than just began. or is it begun? there is no "have" so I think it is began but it sounds so strange. i am eating chocolate cake and it was only a minute ago they stopped playing (on the speakers) a wonderful succession of beatles songs. maybe they're still going but quieter now. i love water. and i appreciate water. clean, pure, delicious water. this winter i am going to be in chicago for my birthday and chanuka, then i am leaving with eran for a trip on amtrak to washington and northern california. i have never been to california before. i will finally get to see san francisco. and more, of course. i can't wait. i'm not sure what ti is i want right now in my life, though, other than this quick trip to the northwest. do i want to be here next semester? my heart and soul seem to eb laying out hints for me telling m that i must be somewhere else, but where would i be better off?

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