Lyric discussion by NyanConverse28 

Recalling experiencing this song, I can say what it means.

It, in my opinion, means that he was trying very hard to be with the girl he wanted, who had suffered physically as much as he had emotionally.

He "was running in circles", round and round to find a way to her hurt and untrusting heart, but then that became a ephermal addiction, and he sought her heart as "his purpose" to live.

He must've found a way to find her, but then something might have happened. (i.e., another guy got to her first, the girl died, etc.)

He felt terrible and very very VERY depressed, as his many efforts had turned in vain.

He wasn't sure to say if everything would be okay, but this is now in the past.

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