This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
You so freaky
You so freaky shorty
Ooh, you so freaky
Shit, you so freaky shorty
Uh uh, you so freaky
Ooh Lord, you so freaky
Mmm uh, you so freaky shorty
Now everybody that's grown got skeleton bones
They got hidden away
Yes y'all there's a freak in us all
Yet some choose not to say
You can't let those who ain't yet
Make you they lil' ball of clay
Be free and express yourself
Nastiness comes naturally
Listen to me now
It could be the way I wanna freak a song
Tattoos, or the way I dress
Or it could be, I wanna walk my way
And refusin' to follow the rest
Or when people haven't been where you been
And they say you still going too far
Or when you wit ya girl and
Pull over and fuck somethin' in the back of the car
I'm a freak
(I'm so excited, go on and say it)
A closet freak
(Oh, I'm a freak, yes I'm a freak, and just can't fight it)
A freak
(I'm so excited, go on and say it)
Aww, a freak
(If you a freak, say you a freak, don't try to fight it)
You got to let the music freak your mind
All the way, if yo' brain leavin' don't mind
You know a boyfriend thing is hard to find
Get on the floor mama and bump and grind
Ain't nuttin' wrong wit, you only gon' get
But it ain't no fun if you been freakin' all mornin'
I'll turn you on to it if you want you gon' do it
All you got to do is find somebody like you
A freak
(I'm so excited, go on and say it)
A closet freak
(Oh, I'm a freak, yes I'm a freak, and just can't hide it)
A freak
(I'm so excited, go on and say it)
Aww, a freak
(If you a freak, say you a freak)
(Wait a minute, where the god-damn horns?)
Freak, sometimes I like freakin in the mornin'
Freak, sometimes I like freakin at night
Freak, some people like freakin just lightly
Freak, some people think freakin ain't right
Freak, some people like freakin outside now
Freak, some people like freakin in the club
Freak, some people like freakin on the express-way
Freak, some people keen doin' it in public
Freak, some people like freakin with the lights out
Freak, some people hell just don't care
Freak, some people like freakin 'bout money
Freak, some people freak anywhere
Freak, you a freak?
Freak, are you a freak?
Freak, I'm a freak
Freak, big ol' freak
You so freaky shorty
Ooh, you so freaky
Shit, you so freaky shorty
Uh uh, you so freaky
Ooh Lord, you so freaky
Mmm uh, you so freaky shorty
Now everybody that's grown got skeleton bones
They got hidden away
Yes y'all there's a freak in us all
Yet some choose not to say
You can't let those who ain't yet
Make you they lil' ball of clay
Be free and express yourself
Nastiness comes naturally
Listen to me now
It could be the way I wanna freak a song
Tattoos, or the way I dress
Or it could be, I wanna walk my way
And refusin' to follow the rest
Or when people haven't been where you been
And they say you still going too far
Or when you wit ya girl and
Pull over and fuck somethin' in the back of the car
I'm a freak
(I'm so excited, go on and say it)
A closet freak
(Oh, I'm a freak, yes I'm a freak, and just can't fight it)
A freak
(I'm so excited, go on and say it)
Aww, a freak
(If you a freak, say you a freak, don't try to fight it)
You got to let the music freak your mind
All the way, if yo' brain leavin' don't mind
You know a boyfriend thing is hard to find
Get on the floor mama and bump and grind
Ain't nuttin' wrong wit, you only gon' get
But it ain't no fun if you been freakin' all mornin'
I'll turn you on to it if you want you gon' do it
All you got to do is find somebody like you
A freak
(I'm so excited, go on and say it)
A closet freak
(Oh, I'm a freak, yes I'm a freak, and just can't hide it)
A freak
(I'm so excited, go on and say it)
Aww, a freak
(If you a freak, say you a freak)
(Wait a minute, where the god-damn horns?)
Freak, sometimes I like freakin in the mornin'
Freak, sometimes I like freakin at night
Freak, some people like freakin just lightly
Freak, some people think freakin ain't right
Freak, some people like freakin outside now
Freak, some people like freakin in the club
Freak, some people like freakin on the express-way
Freak, some people keen doin' it in public
Freak, some people like freakin with the lights out
Freak, some people hell just don't care
Freak, some people like freakin 'bout money
Freak, some people freak anywhere
Freak, you a freak?
Freak, are you a freak?
Freak, I'm a freak
Freak, big ol' freak
Lyrics submitted by PSYCHO697186
Closet Freak Lyrics as written by Gaelle Adisson Eric M Stamile
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Downtown Music Publishing
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