I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
Why?
Sometimes this beauty is choking me,
But at least it's your hands on my throat
Your lashes brush against my cheek,
Coupled with your breath on my neck
The world around you falls away
And I will still be there
I know my words are like daggers
But they cut me too…
And I am sorry for all the fucked up things
I say I didn't mean it
And I never realized that I can be what I hate
Let's be happy with what we have,
Enjoy the beauty in these days
Sometimes we'll laugh
Sometimes we'll scream
No one said caring was easy
I know there was a time when emotions
Felt like pulling teeth
Sometimes I felt so soulless
I couldn't even look at me
It's pathetic to hate who you are
And it feels like hell to change
But I'll be damned if I push you away
And I am sorry for all the fucked up things
I say I didn't mean it
And I never realized that I can be what I hate
Let's be happy with what we have,
Enjoy the beauty in these days
Sometimes we'll laugh
Sometimes we'll scream
No one said caring was easy
I remember when my dreams were dying
And I damned the sun;
I damned the sun to pieces.
I carved hateful thoughts into my chest,
Then you took my hand
And nothing has ever felt the same.
And nothing, has ever...
Nothing has ever felt the same
Sometimes this beauty is choking me,
But at least it's your hands on my throat
Your lashes brush against my cheek,
Coupled with your breath on my neck
The world around you falls away
And I will still be there
I know my words are like daggers
But they cut me too…
And I am sorry for all the fucked up things
I say I didn't mean it
And I never realized that I can be what I hate
Let's be happy with what we have,
Enjoy the beauty in these days
Sometimes we'll laugh
Sometimes we'll scream
No one said caring was easy
I know there was a time when emotions
Felt like pulling teeth
Sometimes I felt so soulless
I couldn't even look at me
It's pathetic to hate who you are
And it feels like hell to change
But I'll be damned if I push you away
And I am sorry for all the fucked up things
I say I didn't mean it
And I never realized that I can be what I hate
Let's be happy with what we have,
Enjoy the beauty in these days
Sometimes we'll laugh
Sometimes we'll scream
No one said caring was easy
I remember when my dreams were dying
And I damned the sun;
I damned the sun to pieces.
I carved hateful thoughts into my chest,
Then you took my hand
And nothing has ever felt the same.
And nothing, has ever...
Nothing has ever felt the same
Lyrics submitted by x_melancholy_x, edited by a scar in the sky
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i love this song so much. here is the whole song altogether.
Why? Sometimes this beauty is choking me, but at least it's your hands on my throat. Your lashes brush against my cheek, coupled with your breath on my neck. The world around you falls away and I will still be there I know my words are like daggers but they cut me too...oh... And I am sorry for all the fucked up things I say I didn't mean it. And I never realized that I can be what I hate. Lets be happy with what we have, enjoy the beauty in these days. Sometimes we'll laugh sometimes we'll scream no one said caring was easy. I know there was a time when emotions felt like pulling teeth. Sometimes I felt so soulless I couldn't even look at me It's pathetic to hate who you are and it feels like hell to change. But I'll be damned if I push you away. I remember when my dreams were dying and I damned, I damned the sun to pieces. I carved hateful thoughts into my chest and then you took my hand and nothing has ever felt the same
i love this part of the song, because it reminds me of how i felt about my girlfriend before she broke up with me.
[Sometimes we'll laugh sometimes we'll scream no one said caring was easy. I know there was a time when emotions felt like pulling teeth. Sometimes I felt so soulless I couldn't even look at me It's pathetic to hate who you are and it feels like hell to change. But I'll be damned if I push you away. I remember when my dreams were dying and I damned, I damned the sun to pieces. I carved hateful thoughts into my chest and then you took my hand and nothing has ever felt the same]
she saved me from myself, and then she took my heart and stepped on it. girls really suck. love sucks. any nice chicks out there? cuz i'd love to meet ya, email me