This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
So much that I can't say to you
My voice shakes from the hurt that I hide
Ashamed of my existence
And of my petty often wounded pride
I'd like to come home to see you
And to catch your sickness by the bedside
But then you'd know how much I really need you
All the love in an instant
Makes my life stop
But then my hate for you
Makes my feelings altogether drop
If only I were blind to your selfish fling
And your desperate cause
And didn't press you for the details
That threaten my physical flaws
I'd like to come home to see you
And embrace your illness under soft light
But then you'd know how much I really need you
All the love in an instant
Makes my life stop
But then my hate for you
Makes my feelings altogether drop
So much that I can say to you
With affection that I burn inside
You're aching from the distance
Avoiding strain that's running still alive
If only I could heal you
In the sprinkling of the ocean side
But then you'd know how much I really love you
All the love in an instant
Makes my life stop
But then my hate for you
Makes my feelings altogether drop
My voice shakes from the hurt that I hide
Ashamed of my existence
And of my petty often wounded pride
I'd like to come home to see you
And to catch your sickness by the bedside
But then you'd know how much I really need you
All the love in an instant
Makes my life stop
But then my hate for you
Makes my feelings altogether drop
If only I were blind to your selfish fling
And your desperate cause
And didn't press you for the details
That threaten my physical flaws
I'd like to come home to see you
And embrace your illness under soft light
But then you'd know how much I really need you
All the love in an instant
Makes my life stop
But then my hate for you
Makes my feelings altogether drop
So much that I can say to you
With affection that I burn inside
You're aching from the distance
Avoiding strain that's running still alive
If only I could heal you
In the sprinkling of the ocean side
But then you'd know how much I really love you
All the love in an instant
Makes my life stop
But then my hate for you
Makes my feelings altogether drop
Lyrics submitted by ThreeMilesDown
Drop Lyrics as written by Mark Edward Kozelek
Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd.
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I have loved and listened to this song for years. To me, it has always been about someone in love with someone who has cheated on them, maybe even been nasty in some ways.
"if only i were blind to your selfish fling and your desperate cause and didn't press you for the details that threaten my physical flaws"
I believe that refers to finding out the details of the cheating/the betrayal. Then being insecure because the "other person" was maybe better looking, in better shape.
There is a real struggle because one loves the other but perhaps knows they are being cheated (in more ways than one).
It's about being deeply in love with someone that you know you shouldn't be because they don't have that same commitment.
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i read in an interview that he wrote this song at his sister's house and basically, he had just found out some information about his girlfriend that he didnt' want to know. he loved her, but now this new information was on his conscious, so it made his feelings "all together drop"....also....look at
"so much that i can't say to you my voice shakes from the hurt that i hide".....i definietely relate to this from dating a girl who had quite a past that i didn't know about and then....i heard and i loved her, but it was tough to get over her past.
I just had a 15 month relationship end a few weeks ago and she's already found someone else. It was a long distance relationship, and despite us being broken up she still wants me to visit her in a month. This has always been one of my most favorite songs but in the past few days I have begun to realize just how special it is to me now with it's new meaning. Devastating.
this reminds me so much of my very own feelings...i can´t explain..this song is mindblowing!
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oh goodness.
this song is so beautiful even though I am not exactly sure what it's about