I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
Picked up on the wrong scent
Not gonna make a dent
How many times
Are you in my rhymes
Burn me once shame on thee
But burn me again, shame on me
I'm chasing and facing the point misplacing
When I think of you my mind's racing
I'm spacing out when I get to the point
Of no return, I get burned
I told myself I'm through with you
The last thing that I'll ever do
Let down my guard, shoudln't be too hard
I know it's over, got to elevate, disregard
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but did it again
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but
This was supposed to be the last time
I told myself this wouldn't happen again
I told myself I wasn't ever going to call you
I told myself I wouldn't let you back in
But here I am dialing, trying
I told myself to get a hold myself
I won't freak out, let you tweak out
On ecstasy not next to me
Somethin' tells me baby girl that you're testin' me
I told myself to get a hold myself
And I'm tryin' I'm not lyin'
Don't make me mad, you know I love you bad
I want to sniff the glue that hold me to you
I told myself to get a hold myself
But don't rush me can't you trust me
The sound I hear whenever you are near
I know it's never wrong and it's my favorite song
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but did it again
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but
This was supposed to be the last time
I told myself this wouldn't happen again
I told myself I wasn't ever going to call you
I told myself I wouldn't let you back in
But here I am dialing, trying
And now it's all turned bad
Turned bad, turned bad
Your ploy to make me jealous
Is obvious and sad
It has the opposite effect
Now you're left with what you had
You had
The rain comes down as love turns to dust
I was joking, she took me serious
The rain comed down as love turns to dust
I was joking, she took me serious
Yes, serious
This was the last time that I was ever going to call you
I told myself I wouldn't let you back in
But here I am dialing, trying
Not gonna make a dent
How many times
Are you in my rhymes
Burn me once shame on thee
But burn me again, shame on me
I'm chasing and facing the point misplacing
When I think of you my mind's racing
I'm spacing out when I get to the point
Of no return, I get burned
I told myself I'm through with you
The last thing that I'll ever do
Let down my guard, shoudln't be too hard
I know it's over, got to elevate, disregard
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but did it again
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but
This was supposed to be the last time
I told myself this wouldn't happen again
I told myself I wasn't ever going to call you
I told myself I wouldn't let you back in
But here I am dialing, trying
I told myself to get a hold myself
I won't freak out, let you tweak out
On ecstasy not next to me
Somethin' tells me baby girl that you're testin' me
I told myself to get a hold myself
And I'm tryin' I'm not lyin'
Don't make me mad, you know I love you bad
I want to sniff the glue that hold me to you
I told myself to get a hold myself
But don't rush me can't you trust me
The sound I hear whenever you are near
I know it's never wrong and it's my favorite song
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but did it again
I can't believe I fell for it, but did it again
I told myself I'm gonna quit, but
This was supposed to be the last time
I told myself this wouldn't happen again
I told myself I wasn't ever going to call you
I told myself I wouldn't let you back in
But here I am dialing, trying
And now it's all turned bad
Turned bad, turned bad
Your ploy to make me jealous
Is obvious and sad
It has the opposite effect
Now you're left with what you had
You had
The rain comes down as love turns to dust
I was joking, she took me serious
The rain comed down as love turns to dust
I was joking, she took me serious
Yes, serious
This was the last time that I was ever going to call you
I told myself I wouldn't let you back in
But here I am dialing, trying
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I Told Myself Lyrics as written by Douglas Martinez Chad Sexton
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ONE WORD.....AWESOME. I've honestly never heard this song, but I've seen the lyrics a lot. I cry every time I see them. I think of a guy who was totally in love with a girl went through a nasty breakup with her and she was the one who went through with it. And it was so nasty that he told himself he was through with it because she put him through so much pain. But he still loves her so they get back together again and history repeats itself- she hurts him again. But it seems that she still cares for him too, though not in the way he does for her. So each time he says he's through with her because of all the pain she caused him, but he loves her so much that he keeps coming back and getting hurt even though he knows he shouldn't. It reminds me a lot of my situation..I really liked this guy..we were together..I broke it off for dumb reasons and ended up hurting him..but also myself. A month later he tells me he still wants us to happen again..I for some reason I don't even know, turned him down again. Then later I found out that I want it too, only to realize that he doesn't- he doesn't want to be hurt again and can't trust me. It's really tough, but we're slowly getting closer and I think he's starting to forget, or at least forgive all the pain I caused. Maybe one day he'll be ready to try again- and when he is, I'll be waiting..and I can say that I won't screw it up again.
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