This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
So Maybe I am Bound By Fate
A Problematic Scarring Induced By Hate
It Never Seems To All Pan Out
Is That What All This Teaching Is Needed To Scout
You Seemed To Have A Bad Effect
Your Rules And Contradictions I would Neglect
Though Not My Fault You Made Me Feel
Like My Own Education wasn't Truly Real
Then You Came Right In Tearing Out My Soul
How Could All This Loss Be Your Only Goal
I'm Left Standing Here Desperate In The Cold
Since You Took Your Life Mine Has not Been Whole
So There I Stood A Scolded Child
The Reasons Never Questioned My Pains Been Filed
Inside This Place That Makes Me Feel
I learned Life Is Unfair And That Is Very Real
Then You Came Right In Tearing Out My Soul
How Could All This Loss Be Your Only Goal
I'm Left Standing Here Desperate In The Cold
Since You Took Your Life Mine Has not Been Whole
While You Try To Overcome The Lesson
Makeing The most Of Those Questions That Just
Keeps Me Guessing
I'm Looking Longer, Harder, Further Than I Ever Have
Solitude Breaking Me Down You Always Seemed Glad
To Put Me down And Stick Me In That little Pit
Personal Growth As A child That Mattered Not A Bit
Then I Became The Person That You Hated Most
Disrespecting The Father, Son, And Holy Ghost
A Small Example Of What The Things You've Done To Me
Have Changed In My Life And Changed The Things
I'll Never Be
I'll Never Be
Then You Came Right In Tearing Out My Soul
How Could All This Loss Be Your Only Goal
I'm Left Standing Here Desperate In The Cold
Since You Took Your Life Mine Has not Been Whole
A Problematic Scarring Induced By Hate
It Never Seems To All Pan Out
Is That What All This Teaching Is Needed To Scout
You Seemed To Have A Bad Effect
Your Rules And Contradictions I would Neglect
Though Not My Fault You Made Me Feel
Like My Own Education wasn't Truly Real
Then You Came Right In Tearing Out My Soul
How Could All This Loss Be Your Only Goal
I'm Left Standing Here Desperate In The Cold
Since You Took Your Life Mine Has not Been Whole
So There I Stood A Scolded Child
The Reasons Never Questioned My Pains Been Filed
Inside This Place That Makes Me Feel
I learned Life Is Unfair And That Is Very Real
Then You Came Right In Tearing Out My Soul
How Could All This Loss Be Your Only Goal
I'm Left Standing Here Desperate In The Cold
Since You Took Your Life Mine Has not Been Whole
While You Try To Overcome The Lesson
Makeing The most Of Those Questions That Just
Keeps Me Guessing
I'm Looking Longer, Harder, Further Than I Ever Have
Solitude Breaking Me Down You Always Seemed Glad
To Put Me down And Stick Me In That little Pit
Personal Growth As A child That Mattered Not A Bit
Then I Became The Person That You Hated Most
Disrespecting The Father, Son, And Holy Ghost
A Small Example Of What The Things You've Done To Me
Have Changed In My Life And Changed The Things
I'll Never Be
I'll Never Be
Then You Came Right In Tearing Out My Soul
How Could All This Loss Be Your Only Goal
I'm Left Standing Here Desperate In The Cold
Since You Took Your Life Mine Has not Been Whole
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