This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I can't shake this feeling from my head
There's a devil sleeping in my bed
Watching you from across the way
I cannot make this feeling go away
I know it's not the right thing
And I know it's not the good thing
But kinda I want to
But kinda I want to
I'm not sure of what I should do
When every thought I'm thinking of is you
All of my excuses turn to lies
Maybe god will cover up his eyes
I know it's not the right thing
And I know it's not the good thing
But kinda I want to, but kinda I want to
But kinda I want to
But kinda I want to
But kinda I want to
Maybe just for tonight
We can pretend it's alright
What's the price I pay
I don't care what they say
I want to
I want to (I'll take my chance tonight)
I want to
I want to
I want to
I want to
I want to
I want to
There's a devil sleeping in my bed
Watching you from across the way
I cannot make this feeling go away
I know it's not the right thing
And I know it's not the good thing
But kinda I want to
But kinda I want to
I'm not sure of what I should do
When every thought I'm thinking of is you
All of my excuses turn to lies
Maybe god will cover up his eyes
I know it's not the right thing
And I know it's not the good thing
But kinda I want to, but kinda I want to
But kinda I want to
But kinda I want to
But kinda I want to
Maybe just for tonight
We can pretend it's alright
What's the price I pay
I don't care what they say
I want to
I want to (I'll take my chance tonight)
I want to
I want to
I want to
I want to
I want to
I want to
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This song is about a short lived addiction to crack cocaine suffered by Trent Reznor. He is singing about his crackpipe on the other side of the room. (I got this from an interview I don't make this shit up)
"Sanctified" is the song that Trent said was about cocaine. "Kinda I Want To" is about someone strugging with homosexual desire.
i wonder who the lucky guy is.
trent reznors bi? ther goes another cool person added to my cool homos list along with freddie mercury and rob halford
trent reznors bi? lol thats awesome... courtney love is always claiming hes a homophobic bastard... LMAO shes such a fucking whore.
Is he seriously bi? Was he ever? If he was, is that stage in his life over?
***If he is bi, that would explain the "Sin" video a bit.
Sure, get both.
You know, Trent actually doesn't like this song, which is why he won't play it live... I think it fucking rocks, a live version would be nice.
As far as the meaning, I think it's about temptation. He's trying to resist, but as implied by the title, he wants to indulge his temptation.
Really? Hmm, I heard this song was about trent being bi-curious. Yes, folks, for those who don't know trent swings on both sides of the fence if ya know what I mean. Watch, some people still won't believe it. "But he's married!"
LOL Married!? Yeah right... I completely agree with you by the way. And not that there's anything wrong with that (Seinfeld voice.)
Helixi- Trent's not married. He's never been married. He was supposed to be featured on VH1's "Most Eligible Bachelors" show earlier this year, but something was fucked with his publicist.