This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
It's all black
Your kingdom's turned me blank
I'm paper and I'm snow
I'm lost, but I can't slow
I'm lost, but not alone
It's so light, the dark it burns my eyes
My bones, they used to glow
But now I'm throwing stones
I'm losing where to go
Shadows on my back are moving slow
They twist behind like white leaves in the wind
And as I ride, these horses will take flight
Falling hard, falling high, through your arms
Shadows in my head don't need no light
They stay through the night
Without you, my lips are turning blue
The water pulls me down
And drowns under your sound
This silence booms so loud
I'm locked up, your kingdom's like a drug
The chains are made of glass
I'm breaking through your blood
I'm never strong enough
Shadows on my back are moving slow
They twist behind like white leaves in the wind
And as I ride, these horses will take flight
Falling hard, falling high, through your arms
Shadows in my head don't need no light
They stay through the night
To every rose with bloody thorns
It lift you up and lets you fall
To rivers flowing 'yond the factory halls
Your kingdom's come, it's waiting still
The space between you'll never fill
I tried, but I could not change your mind
I dance around, and I lost you now
I breathed you out, I kept you out
But if I could, I'd turn back around
Your kingdom's turned me blank
I'm paper and I'm snow
I'm lost, but I can't slow
I'm lost, but not alone
It's so light, the dark it burns my eyes
My bones, they used to glow
But now I'm throwing stones
I'm losing where to go
Shadows on my back are moving slow
They twist behind like white leaves in the wind
And as I ride, these horses will take flight
Falling hard, falling high, through your arms
Shadows in my head don't need no light
They stay through the night
Without you, my lips are turning blue
The water pulls me down
And drowns under your sound
This silence booms so loud
I'm locked up, your kingdom's like a drug
The chains are made of glass
I'm breaking through your blood
I'm never strong enough
Shadows on my back are moving slow
They twist behind like white leaves in the wind
And as I ride, these horses will take flight
Falling hard, falling high, through your arms
Shadows in my head don't need no light
They stay through the night
To every rose with bloody thorns
It lift you up and lets you fall
To rivers flowing 'yond the factory halls
Your kingdom's come, it's waiting still
The space between you'll never fill
I tried, but I could not change your mind
I dance around, and I lost you now
I breathed you out, I kept you out
But if I could, I'd turn back around
Lyrics submitted by LiveInImagination
Kingdom Lyrics as written by Holly Hardy Charlotte Aitchison
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
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I don't know why they did this, but these are NOT the lyrics I submitted. I don't know what that lyric find thing is but it's pretty terrible at its job. I've noticed this with other songs I've submitted as well. Here are the correct lyrics:
It's all black Your kingdom's turned me black On paper and on snow I'm lost but I can't slow I'm lost but not alone
It's all light The dark, it burns my eyes My bones they used to glow But now, I'm throwing stones I'm losing where to go
Shadows on my back I'm moving slow They twist behind like White leaves in the wind And as I ride, these horses will take flight
Falling hard, falling high Through your arms Shadows in my head Don't need no light, they stay through the night
Without you My lips are turning blue The water pulls me down I'm trapped under your sun This silence feels so loud
I'm locked up Your kingdom's like a drug The chains are made of glass I'm breaking through the blood I'm never strong enough
Shadows on my back I'm moving slow They twist behind like White leaves in the wind And as I ride, these horses will take flight
Falling hard, falling high Through your arms Shadows in my head Don't need no light, they stay through the night
To every rose with bloody thorns It lifts you up, then lets you fall Two rivers flowing under factory holes Your kingdom's come, it's waiting still The space between, you'll never feel I tried, but I could not change your mind
I danced around And I lost you now I breathed you out I kept you out But if I could, I'd turn back around