I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
Five months, three weeks, and two days ago
He walked out of my life
Took every ounce of strength I had
Not to break right down and cry
Any other time I probably would
Oh, but there's no need for that
'Cause I'm sure he's not gone for good
Yeah, he's still comin' back
At least that's what I tell myself
To keep my heart from breakin'(well)
What else am I supposed to do
I can't bear to face the truth
I don't know where he is tonight
But I know when he turns out the lights
He won't be holdin' someone else
At least that's what I tell myself
I still remember our last kiss
And just how sweet it was
How he acted like he didn't care
Oh, but I know he still does
And right before he said goodbye
He took off his ring
Said, "I don't need this anymore"
Oh, but that don't mean a thing
At least that's what I tell myself
To keep my heart from breakin'(well)
What else am I supposed to do
I can't bear to face the truth
I don't know where he is tonight
But I know when he turns out the lights
He won't be holdin' someone else
At least that's what I tell myself
It's another sleepless night
Here in this lonely bed
I might not hold him anymore
But he don't love me any less
At least that's what I tell myself
To keep my heart from breakin'(well)
What else am I supposed to do
I can't bear to face the truth
I don't know where he is tonight
But I know when he turns out the lights
He won't be holdin' someone else
At least that's what I tell myself
He walked out of my life
Took every ounce of strength I had
Not to break right down and cry
Any other time I probably would
Oh, but there's no need for that
'Cause I'm sure he's not gone for good
Yeah, he's still comin' back
At least that's what I tell myself
To keep my heart from breakin'(well)
What else am I supposed to do
I can't bear to face the truth
I don't know where he is tonight
But I know when he turns out the lights
He won't be holdin' someone else
At least that's what I tell myself
I still remember our last kiss
And just how sweet it was
How he acted like he didn't care
Oh, but I know he still does
And right before he said goodbye
He took off his ring
Said, "I don't need this anymore"
Oh, but that don't mean a thing
At least that's what I tell myself
To keep my heart from breakin'(well)
What else am I supposed to do
I can't bear to face the truth
I don't know where he is tonight
But I know when he turns out the lights
He won't be holdin' someone else
At least that's what I tell myself
It's another sleepless night
Here in this lonely bed
I might not hold him anymore
But he don't love me any less
At least that's what I tell myself
To keep my heart from breakin'(well)
What else am I supposed to do
I can't bear to face the truth
I don't know where he is tonight
But I know when he turns out the lights
He won't be holdin' someone else
At least that's what I tell myself
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What I Tell Myself Lyrics as written by Noah Adrian Gordon Kendal Marvel
Lyrics © Anthem Entertainment, Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
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