This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
My heart booms
At the speed of light
But the exit sign's
Always on my mind
Always in my sight
I can say that I
Really want to stay
But the devil inside
Always wins the fight
Always gets his way
Jump out the window
Gotta get out on the highway
When things are getting too attached
I need an escape
I'm seeing stars and there is
Nothing more that I hate
Baby, there's something that I gotta say
It's disgusting how I love you
I can't take it, I should hate you
Cause you're messing up my name
Gotta walk my talk, my fame
But I just wanna touch your face
It's disgusting
It's disgusting how you changed me
From a bandit to a baby
Think I might gotta change my name
If I'm gonna walk this walk in shame
Look at what you do to me, it's disgusting
My mind blinks
Like a traffic light
It's green and red
And stop and go
Changing all the time
And it makes me scared
That I haven't left
And I'm still right here
More, more, more or less
Jump out in traffic
Yeah, I gotta go my own way
My heart is slipping, too intense
I need an escape
I'm seeing stars and there is
Nothing more that I hate
Baby, there's something that I gotta say
It's disgusting how I love you
I can't take it, I should hate you
Cause you're messing up my name
Gotta walk my talk, my fame
But I just wanna touch your face
It's disgusting
It's disgusting how you changed me
From a bandit to a baby
Think I might gotta change my name
If I'm gonna walk this walk of shame
Look at what you do to me, it's disgusting
Chapter by chapter
I'm falling faster and faster
Becoming manic, the magic
It's so romantic, I panic oh
Hit the eject button but
It must be stuck, something's up
I'm drifting out
Right over the brink, baby
It's disgusting how I love you
I can't take it, I should hate you
Cause you're messing up my name
Gotta walk my talk, my fame
But I just wanna touch your face
It's disgusting
It's disgusting how you changed me
From a bandit to a baby
Think I might gotta change my name
If I'm gonna walk this walk of shame
Look at what you do to me, it's disgusting
Look at what you do to me, it's disgusting
At the speed of light
But the exit sign's
Always on my mind
Always in my sight
I can say that I
Really want to stay
But the devil inside
Always wins the fight
Always gets his way
Jump out the window
Gotta get out on the highway
When things are getting too attached
I need an escape
I'm seeing stars and there is
Nothing more that I hate
Baby, there's something that I gotta say
It's disgusting how I love you
I can't take it, I should hate you
Cause you're messing up my name
Gotta walk my talk, my fame
But I just wanna touch your face
It's disgusting
It's disgusting how you changed me
From a bandit to a baby
Think I might gotta change my name
If I'm gonna walk this walk in shame
Look at what you do to me, it's disgusting
My mind blinks
Like a traffic light
It's green and red
And stop and go
Changing all the time
And it makes me scared
That I haven't left
And I'm still right here
More, more, more or less
Jump out in traffic
Yeah, I gotta go my own way
My heart is slipping, too intense
I need an escape
I'm seeing stars and there is
Nothing more that I hate
Baby, there's something that I gotta say
It's disgusting how I love you
I can't take it, I should hate you
Cause you're messing up my name
Gotta walk my talk, my fame
But I just wanna touch your face
It's disgusting
It's disgusting how you changed me
From a bandit to a baby
Think I might gotta change my name
If I'm gonna walk this walk of shame
Look at what you do to me, it's disgusting
Chapter by chapter
I'm falling faster and faster
Becoming manic, the magic
It's so romantic, I panic oh
Hit the eject button but
It must be stuck, something's up
I'm drifting out
Right over the brink, baby
It's disgusting how I love you
I can't take it, I should hate you
Cause you're messing up my name
Gotta walk my talk, my fame
But I just wanna touch your face
It's disgusting
It's disgusting how you changed me
From a bandit to a baby
Think I might gotta change my name
If I'm gonna walk this walk of shame
Look at what you do to me, it's disgusting
Look at what you do to me, it's disgusting
Lyrics submitted by Breakingbenjaminfan
Disgusting Lyrics as written by Pebe Sebert Kesha Sebert
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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