Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
I have a few words in defense of my youth
My guts are feeling an ocean or two
I was young; I didn't know what I was stumbling into
I've had a lot on my mind and there were so many rules
Makes a girl crazy, makes her break a few
And there I go again
Acting like it's my fault
When you're to blame
It makes me happy
To use you a little
Just to use you a little
To write this song
It's the very last letter
To an old lover
To say I'm glad you're gone
I've got snapshots of things on my mind
Though I love the past, we don't leave it behind
But I learned and now I know
I don't need you coming around
One thing I should probably say
I got over it all and surrendered the pain
That's the thing about mistakes
You never see them coming
Until it's too late
It makes me happy
To use you a little
Just to use you a little
To write this song
It's the very last letter
To an old lover
To say I'm glad
Sacrifice my happiness
It's not enough to know
I'm better off the way it is
It makes me happy
To use you a little
Just to use you a little
To write this song
It's the very last letter
To an old lover
To say I'm glad
It makes me happy
To use you a little
Just to use you a little
To write this song
It's the very last letter
To an old lover
To say I'm glad you're gone
My guts are feeling an ocean or two
I was young; I didn't know what I was stumbling into
I've had a lot on my mind and there were so many rules
Makes a girl crazy, makes her break a few
And there I go again
Acting like it's my fault
When you're to blame
It makes me happy
To use you a little
Just to use you a little
To write this song
It's the very last letter
To an old lover
To say I'm glad you're gone
I've got snapshots of things on my mind
Though I love the past, we don't leave it behind
But I learned and now I know
I don't need you coming around
One thing I should probably say
I got over it all and surrendered the pain
That's the thing about mistakes
You never see them coming
Until it's too late
It makes me happy
To use you a little
Just to use you a little
To write this song
It's the very last letter
To an old lover
To say I'm glad
Sacrifice my happiness
It's not enough to know
I'm better off the way it is
It makes me happy
To use you a little
Just to use you a little
To write this song
It's the very last letter
To an old lover
To say I'm glad
It makes me happy
To use you a little
Just to use you a little
To write this song
It's the very last letter
To an old lover
To say I'm glad you're gone
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