I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
My heart goes at the speed of light
But the exit signs always on my mind, always in my sight.
I can say that I really want to stay,
But the devil inside always wins the fight, always gets his way.
Jump out the window gotta get out on the highway,
Think things have getting too attached I need an escape.
I'm seeing stars and there is nothing more that I hate, baby.
There is something that I gotta say.
It's disgusting, how I love you.
God, I hate me. I could kill you.
Cause your messing up my name.
Gotta walk my talk my fame, but I just want to touch your face.
It's disgusting.
It's disgusting, how you changed me.
From a bandit to a baby.
Thinking about gotta change my name,
If I'm gonna walk this walk of shame.
Look at what you do to me.
It's disgusting.
My mind blinks like a traffic light.
It's green and red and stop and go. Changing all the time.
And it makes me scared, that I haven't loved.
That it's still right here, more or or or less.
Stuck out in traffic, ya, I gotta go my own way.
My head is slipping, too intense I need an escape
I'm seeing stars and there is nothing more than I hate, baby.
There is something that I gotta say.
It's disgusting, how I love you.
God, I hate me. I could kill you.
Cause your messing up my name.
Gotta walk my talk my fame, but I just want to touch your face.
It's disgusting.
It's disgusting, how you changed me.
From a bandit to a baby.
Thinking about gotta change my name,
If I'm gonna walk this walk of shame.
Look at what you do to me.
It's disgusting.
Chapter by chapter, I'm falling faster and faster,
Becoming manic and magic it's so romantic I panic, oh.
Hit the eject button but it must be stuck, somethings up.
What did you slip into my drink? Baby.
It's disgusting, how I love you.
God, I hate me. I could kill you.
Cause your messing up my name.
Gotta walk my talk my fame, but I just want to touch your face.
It's disgusting.
It's disgusting, how you changed me.
From a bandit to a baby.
Thinking about gotta change my name,
If I'm gonna walk this walk of shame.
Look at what you do to me.
It's disgusting.
Oh, it's disgusting
Oh, it's disgusting
Look at what you do to me.
Oh, look at what you do to me.
It's disgusting.
Disgusting.
But the exit signs always on my mind, always in my sight.
I can say that I really want to stay,
But the devil inside always wins the fight, always gets his way.
Jump out the window gotta get out on the highway,
Think things have getting too attached I need an escape.
I'm seeing stars and there is nothing more that I hate, baby.
There is something that I gotta say.
It's disgusting, how I love you.
God, I hate me. I could kill you.
Cause your messing up my name.
Gotta walk my talk my fame, but I just want to touch your face.
It's disgusting.
It's disgusting, how you changed me.
From a bandit to a baby.
Thinking about gotta change my name,
If I'm gonna walk this walk of shame.
Look at what you do to me.
It's disgusting.
My mind blinks like a traffic light.
It's green and red and stop and go. Changing all the time.
And it makes me scared, that I haven't loved.
That it's still right here, more or or or less.
Stuck out in traffic, ya, I gotta go my own way.
My head is slipping, too intense I need an escape
I'm seeing stars and there is nothing more than I hate, baby.
There is something that I gotta say.
It's disgusting, how I love you.
God, I hate me. I could kill you.
Cause your messing up my name.
Gotta walk my talk my fame, but I just want to touch your face.
It's disgusting.
It's disgusting, how you changed me.
From a bandit to a baby.
Thinking about gotta change my name,
If I'm gonna walk this walk of shame.
Look at what you do to me.
It's disgusting.
Chapter by chapter, I'm falling faster and faster,
Becoming manic and magic it's so romantic I panic, oh.
Hit the eject button but it must be stuck, somethings up.
What did you slip into my drink? Baby.
It's disgusting, how I love you.
God, I hate me. I could kill you.
Cause your messing up my name.
Gotta walk my talk my fame, but I just want to touch your face.
It's disgusting.
It's disgusting, how you changed me.
From a bandit to a baby.
Thinking about gotta change my name,
If I'm gonna walk this walk of shame.
Look at what you do to me.
It's disgusting.
Oh, it's disgusting
Oh, it's disgusting
Look at what you do to me.
Oh, look at what you do to me.
It's disgusting.
Disgusting.
Lyrics submitted by notoriousxDEV
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` In the begininng, i think it's "my heart booms" instead of "My heart goes" && i also might think it's "gotta walk my talk my frame" because frame means her body & it makes sense . But i love this song , i relate to it ALOT ! x
yea i agree... BOOMS instead of 'GOES" :) whats it mena though? that she's scared to love?
I think its about her being afraid of real love and commitment, kind of like a guy. Gender role reversal FTW~
It's about having your head tell you not to fall in love, but your heart can't help it and she wishes she wasn't in love, but she totally is starstruck by this boy.
I think I understand this song completely.
She's terrified of love, basically. She doesn't wanna commit to someone because she's already been hurt, and she's all "Wtf. I don't fall in love", and she hates it, but then again she loves it. And, it's 'disgusting' because she's so confused and angry at herself because she's not supposed to be 'that girl' that falls in love.
the part i don't understand is From a bandit to a baby does it mean that she's a bad girl but he makes her act like a loving girl or that she's a good girl and he makes her act bad ???
@Roxie94 I personally think it means she went from a one night stand party girl (no strings attached etc.) to someone's "baby" (a term of endearment and attachment)
I think it's about being in love with someone and they hurt you but you just can't get over them. Idk. :P.
FUCKING LOVE! <3