This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I can only say these things to you while you're sleeping
I hear the hum from the wires the sounds of the morning creepin'
So I lie awake and pretend you can hear me
Tell that you're scared of turning into your mother
I feel myself turn into my father
We could lie to each other like they do and say we're so happy
It's easy when you're young and you still want it so badly
And I feel my heart pounding
And I think I might scream
I can tell you that you're all I ever wanted, dear
And I can utter every word that you ever hoped to hear
I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever
Tonight you whisper like a ghost and you look so shaken
You're so quiet and small and you tell me you want to be taken
I just never think of you as the kind of girl that would say that
You suddenly seem like some faceless thing in my grasp
You eyes so wide, your face aglow
It's the face of someone I don't know
I can tell you that you're all I ever wanted, dear
And I can utter every word that you've ever hoped to hear
I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever
All I can think is that it must be a kind of rebellion
To arm your fears like soldiers and slay them
I can tell you that you're all I've ever wanted, dear
Thorough the din of your breathing while you're sleeping here
You wake and you ask me
If I'm going to be here forever, forever, forever
Your face so expressive
And your eyes a lie
I wanna to tell you I can change them
When you cry at night
But I'd be lying
Love is defying
I hear the hum from the wires the sounds of the morning creepin'
So I lie awake and pretend you can hear me
Tell that you're scared of turning into your mother
I feel myself turn into my father
We could lie to each other like they do and say we're so happy
It's easy when you're young and you still want it so badly
And I feel my heart pounding
And I think I might scream
I can tell you that you're all I ever wanted, dear
And I can utter every word that you ever hoped to hear
I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever
Tonight you whisper like a ghost and you look so shaken
You're so quiet and small and you tell me you want to be taken
I just never think of you as the kind of girl that would say that
You suddenly seem like some faceless thing in my grasp
You eyes so wide, your face aglow
It's the face of someone I don't know
I can tell you that you're all I ever wanted, dear
And I can utter every word that you've ever hoped to hear
I shudder when I think that I might not be here forever, forever, forever
All I can think is that it must be a kind of rebellion
To arm your fears like soldiers and slay them
I can tell you that you're all I've ever wanted, dear
Thorough the din of your breathing while you're sleeping here
You wake and you ask me
If I'm going to be here forever, forever, forever
Your face so expressive
And your eyes a lie
I wanna to tell you I can change them
When you cry at night
But I'd be lying
Love is defying
Lyrics submitted by mooaura, edited by xkristinx, ForzaFerrari20
All I Ever Wanted Lyrics as written by Steve Chen Mikel Frans Jollett
Lyrics © BMG Rights Management
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