I'll vomit illusions,
Trick myself that i'm happy,
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.

I think my heart could receive it,
Cheap imposter where you heading,
Thank you my love would you believe me,
Thank you my love would you be listening.
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.

Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe i only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me-e-e)
I'm not real, I Was never born.
x2

I am forever alive,
I hook my heart to my eyes,
I reach from birth just to die,
I keep the devil inside i grow him in me.

I think my heart could receive it,
Cheap imposter where you heading,
Thank you my love would you believe me,
Thank you my love would you be listening.
But so much comes out of my mouth it's burning me empty.

Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe i only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me-e-e)
I'm not real, I Was never born.
x2

I watched you choke on me,
You leave me unbalanced,
You come back to break them.
x4

Feel me my anger's gone,
I don't breathe i only have a son,
It's not me (it's not me-e-e)
I'm not real, I Was never born.
x2

I AM FOREVER ALIVE,
I HOOK MY HEART TO MY EYES


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    My Interpretation

    I have to agree it is very sad, and yet so beautiful, like an eloquent Bring Me The Horizon when you listen to the guitar work. I think that he is dealing with a love that he can not have, and it is a theme I find relevant in the album. Or maybe a sibling altercation. Vomiting illusions-speaking lies to trick himself to be happy. Hook my heart to my eyes-his emotions are being drug by what he sees is apparent. He seems to be accepting to himself that he is a failure, and the devil, or evil, is inside him. He is sick of living the lies. Hence the vomit word choice and the use of the words cheap imposter. The only part I don't understand is the part of the son. Maybe this is but an elegy to the unborn. haha.

    Dariushon May 09, 2009   Link

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