This Losing

i know that the interpretations are all about what the lyrics and melody and just general atmosphere of a song means to you, the feeling it gives you that you can't always even articulate, or explain to other people in a way that they will get it. so with that said, this is what i picture this song meaning: I picture a guy and a girl that were together and have one of those relationships that had so much history and that they made an indelible mark on eachother's lives, so that everywhere they go, they see things that remind them of eachother and the time they spent together and so when he hears that song or drives by that spot or so on, it makes him miss her and miss the past and miss those memories. and so, like every other time this happens, he shows up at her door, and is asking can he come in so they can talk about them, because he misses her so much and can't rememeber why they broke up etc etc etc and so, like countless times before, she lets him in and they end up getting caught up in the memories and the moment, and he spends the night, like every other time before. and them being together reminds them of their past and they love it, but secretly they're both praying "like they're mourning the dead" --whether they know that they're praying that it won't go the same way again, or whether its one of those times when you can't stop yourself from desperately praying but you're not really exactly sure why.... then they wake up the next morning and they suddenly remember how this scenario always goes: after the nostalgia has worn away they realize that thats all it was--just nostalgia. they tried to be together and now they remember clearly why it didn't work out. and it leaves them feeling even worse than before. so i think the part where he's saying "darling don't let me in" its like him in his sane mind--when he's NOT pleading with her in her doorway to let him in cause he misses her so much or when he DOESN'T see something that makes him miss their past and the idea of "eachother"--its when he can see clearly that starting the whole vicious cycle is a bad idea and will just always cycle the same way and end in more pain for them both. its kinda like him saying "when i show up at your door, like we both know i will, no matter how much i plead and beg and seem like i want to be let in....don't let me in. because thats not what i want. i may think that what i want, at that time, but when it all wears off and i can think clearly again, i'll be glad we didn't put eachother through that again. so, darling, don't let me in."