Overall about difficult moments of disappointment and vulnerability. Having hope and longing, while remaining optimistic for the future. Encourages the belief that with each new morning there is a chance for things to improve.
The chorus offers a glimmer of optimism and a chance at a resolution and redemption in the future.
Captures the rollercoaster of emotions of feeling lost while loving someone who is not there for you, feeling let down and abandoned while waiting for a lover. Lost with no direction, "Now I'm up in the air with the rain in my hair, Nowhere to go, I can go anywhere"
The bridge shows signs of longing and a plea for companionship. The Lyrics express a desire for authentic connection and the importance of Loving someone just as they are. "Just in passing, I'm not asking. That you be anyone but you”
When I was a child
I toyed with dirt
an I fought
As a child
I killed the slugs I bored with a bough
in their spiracle
When I was a child
peers pushed me hard
In my head
In my neck
in my chest
in my waist
in my butt
I still beg
please help me
When I was a child
I threw with dung as I fought
As a child, I killed all thugs
and I bored with a bough
In their spiracle
When I was a child
foes pushed me hard
In my
In my neck
in my chest
in my waist
in my butt
I still beg
please help me
When I was a child
I rend my tongue, distraught
As a child
I killed my thoughts
and bored with a bough
In my spiracle
When I was a child
Fears pushed me hard in my head
In my neck
in my chest
in my waist
I never loved
I still beg
please help me
When I was a child
I bred a whore in my heart
A stillborn child
I gasp for -
The devil into my spiracle
I was a child
I was a child
I am a child
I toyed with dirt
an I fought
As a child
I killed the slugs I bored with a bough
in their spiracle
When I was a child
peers pushed me hard
In my head
In my neck
in my chest
in my waist
in my butt
I still beg
please help me
When I was a child
I threw with dung as I fought
As a child, I killed all thugs
and I bored with a bough
In their spiracle
When I was a child
foes pushed me hard
In my
In my neck
in my chest
in my waist
in my butt
I still beg
please help me
When I was a child
I rend my tongue, distraught
As a child
I killed my thoughts
and bored with a bough
In my spiracle
When I was a child
Fears pushed me hard in my head
In my neck
in my chest
in my waist
I never loved
I still beg
please help me
When I was a child
I bred a whore in my heart
A stillborn child
I gasp for -
The devil into my spiracle
I was a child
I was a child
I am a child
Lyrics submitted by Lateralus518
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I really love this song, but I'm not yet sure about its meaning... if she was really abused as a child by some bullies or anything...
hmm... the lyrics are very intense, that's for sure!
Someone please tell me what the meaning of this song is..... I love it!
Anja was bullied a lot in her childhood because she was so different. I think that is what this song is about. I read an article about it. Poor girl...
isn't she only 20? intense, yes. and sad.
it ALSO sounds like the addition of bgvs are trying to imply that a lot of kids are mistreated. a horrible and preventable truth.
It is about life-long unwanted brooding overwhelming desire to fight whole world, or yourself, or anything and about being beaten in return. I have such desire too, so it crystaly clear for me.
and what does 'spiracle' mean?
Spiracles are openings on the surface of some animals that usually lead to respiratory systems. en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spiracle<br /> <br /> If you bored with a bug an spiracle, is like you can't breathe anymore, is like a wound in your lungs. You can't breathe well enough.
the pain you can feel when you're a chilld, and they tell you horrible things or beat you, or bother you in such ways you are completely destroyed inside.
You're screaming for help, but you can't use your mouth, however, nobody seems to note that you need help. You're completely alone, a harmful solitude. So you live your enterly life in a painful silence, a big hole of wounds.
Excuse my english.
I'm fairly new to Soap&Skin, but I'm already completely in love with it, this song in particular. I don't know a lot about Anja (I don't think anyone really does), but she seems to be a very troubled person. She said in one interview that she was bullied very badly as a child in school, and I read somewhere that when she was young she would kill snails out of anger at one of her parents, but I'm not sure how true that is. I think this is a very personal song to Anja, about the cruelty she suffered at the hands of other children. If it's not that, it could very well be about the cruelty of children in general. People say children are innocent, but really they can be exceptionally cruel. They do it out of curiosity without realizing the damage they are doing, whether it be to animals or other people.
Well one may link this to awful experiences in one's childhood, but it seems that the repetition of patterns through the paragraphes rather highlights the notion of trauma encountered by children under 10-12, than the reason of trauma. Under that age, children lack cognitive development that helps them to rationalise painful experiences (and I'm absolutely not reducing the effet that rape might have on a child) the brain prefers to push away, to forget, to put aside. This experience influences your whole affective and cognitive development, and may give an impression of "a child grown up too fast" or "an adult who isn't grown out". And that seems to be expressed by the last sentence.
We all (more or less) bare some kind of emotional or physical burden from our childhood. We all blustered at someone and we all were blustered by someone. In many cases people bully inferior ones and are bullied by superior ones. When I was a child I rend my tongue, distraught. Some people lack self confidence and dont say what they have to say which is too frustrating and can easily make them deeply agitated. All this can make someone engender into an introvert malevolent person. <3 love the song