This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I'm your lover, I'm your brother
I'm your killer, I'm your friend
I'm your teacher, I'm your preacher
I'm the reaper in the end
I'm your healer, I'm your dealer
I'm your angel, let's pretend
I'm your jailer, I'm your failure
I'm the reaper in the end
Along came the spider
Crept up beside her
Spun his web deep inside her
My darkness will guide her
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
You're my sinner, you're my dinner
My little puppet, let's pretend
You're the cure to my affliction
My addiction to the end
Along came the spider
Crept up beside her
Spun his web deep inside her
My darkness will guide her
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
I was born to it
Not something to strive for
Not something to even admire, unless it was
It's done with the greatest of taste
Conviction and expertise
I am the spider
Along came the spider
Crept up beside her
Spun his web deep inside her
My darkness will guide her
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
Well, they found my diary today
They were appropriately appalled
At the discovery of the eight victims
They're now putting it all together
Women wrapped in silk
With one leg missing
Eight legs, one body, silk
Spider, brilliant
We've been in this cell
For twenty eight years, Steven
We couldn't have done all
Those horrible things
Yes, I know
I know what you always say
You trap, you kill, you eat
That's what a good spider does
You trap, you kill, you eat
You trap, you kill, you eat
I'm your killer, I'm your friend
I'm your teacher, I'm your preacher
I'm the reaper in the end
I'm your healer, I'm your dealer
I'm your angel, let's pretend
I'm your jailer, I'm your failure
I'm the reaper in the end
Along came the spider
Crept up beside her
Spun his web deep inside her
My darkness will guide her
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
You're my sinner, you're my dinner
My little puppet, let's pretend
You're the cure to my affliction
My addiction to the end
Along came the spider
Crept up beside her
Spun his web deep inside her
My darkness will guide her
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
I was born to it
Not something to strive for
Not something to even admire, unless it was
It's done with the greatest of taste
Conviction and expertise
I am the spider
Along came the spider
Crept up beside her
Spun his web deep inside her
My darkness will guide her
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
I am the spider
Well, they found my diary today
They were appropriately appalled
At the discovery of the eight victims
They're now putting it all together
Women wrapped in silk
With one leg missing
Eight legs, one body, silk
Spider, brilliant
We've been in this cell
For twenty eight years, Steven
We couldn't have done all
Those horrible things
Yes, I know
I know what you always say
You trap, you kill, you eat
That's what a good spider does
You trap, you kill, you eat
You trap, you kill, you eat
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