This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Woken up those New York mornings, shivering bones
Thinking how the air welled up, her old brown stone
Close down to kiss her, marks time past flown
So hard to find it in us to leave these dreams
To leave these dreams
Growing up Ohio mornings sleeping in late
Ducking out the window, the school I hate
Listening to my mother talking with her neighborhood friends
Underneath the drone guitar of lucky man
Stranded out those Florida beaches, poor as a joke
Sails fly in Merritt Islands, lazy blue coast
Cool refrains of ocean rain, echo off of my head
Celebrated summer, friends and brothers, the freedom we fell
And you're what I remember
Shining down the L.A. highways, glorious sun
Far from you, from my home, and everyone I love
Sinking in the shallow end of her infinite pools
Silver lakes and palisades and Malibu
Woken up those lost young mornings, somewhere in Spain
I couldn't say the towns I slept, my lovers' names
Pouring in on Sunday, heaven's church bell rang
I didn't know my purpose till I stood and sang
For crowds of passing faces
Woken up to this new Aprils sleepy gray skies
The rain has swept the dust that left, the gutters rise
The fog it spills into the hills, crawling out East
The windows weep, beside me now though she sleeps and I
Now have I found her
Thinking how the air welled up, her old brown stone
Close down to kiss her, marks time past flown
So hard to find it in us to leave these dreams
To leave these dreams
Growing up Ohio mornings sleeping in late
Ducking out the window, the school I hate
Listening to my mother talking with her neighborhood friends
Underneath the drone guitar of lucky man
Stranded out those Florida beaches, poor as a joke
Sails fly in Merritt Islands, lazy blue coast
Cool refrains of ocean rain, echo off of my head
Celebrated summer, friends and brothers, the freedom we fell
And you're what I remember
Shining down the L.A. highways, glorious sun
Far from you, from my home, and everyone I love
Sinking in the shallow end of her infinite pools
Silver lakes and palisades and Malibu
Woken up those lost young mornings, somewhere in Spain
I couldn't say the towns I slept, my lovers' names
Pouring in on Sunday, heaven's church bell rang
I didn't know my purpose till I stood and sang
For crowds of passing faces
Woken up to this new Aprils sleepy gray skies
The rain has swept the dust that left, the gutters rise
The fog it spills into the hills, crawling out East
The windows weep, beside me now though she sleeps and I
Now have I found her
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