This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
(I feel like, I feel like, I feel like)
I am sittin' on the clouds
I got smoke comin' from my seat
I can play basketball with the moon
I got the whole world at my feet
Playin' touch football, on marijuana street
Or, in a marijuana field, you are so beneath my cleets
Get high, so high, that I feel like lying
Down in a cigar, roll me up and smoke me 'cause
(I feel like dying)
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
(I feel like, I feel like, I feel like)
Swimming laps around a bottle of Louis the Thirteenth
Jumpin' off of a mountain into a sea of Codeine
I'm at the top of the top, but still I climb
And if I should ever fall
The ground would then turn to wine
Pop, pop, I feel like flying
Then I feel like frying, then
(I feel like dying)
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
(I feel like, I feel like, I feel like)
I can mingle with the stars
And throw a party on Mars
I am a prisoner, locked up behind Xanax bars
I have just boarded a plane, without a pilot
And violets are blue, roses are red
Daisies are yellow, the flowers are dead
Wish I can give you this feeling, I feel like buying
And if my dealer don't have no more, then
(I feel like dying)
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
(I feel like, I feel like, I feel like)
I am sittin' on the clouds
I got smoke comin' from my seat
I can play basketball with the moon
I got the whole world at my feet
Playin' touch football, on marijuana street
Or, in a marijuana field, you are so beneath my cleets
Get high, so high, that I feel like lying
Down in a cigar, roll me up and smoke me 'cause
(I feel like dying)
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
(I feel like, I feel like, I feel like)
Swimming laps around a bottle of Louis the Thirteenth
Jumpin' off of a mountain into a sea of Codeine
I'm at the top of the top, but still I climb
And if I should ever fall
The ground would then turn to wine
Pop, pop, I feel like flying
Then I feel like frying, then
(I feel like dying)
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
(I feel like, I feel like, I feel like)
I can mingle with the stars
And throw a party on Mars
I am a prisoner, locked up behind Xanax bars
I have just boarded a plane, without a pilot
And violets are blue, roses are red
Daisies are yellow, the flowers are dead
Wish I can give you this feeling, I feel like buying
And if my dealer don't have no more, then
(I feel like dying)
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
Only once the drugs are done
That I feel like dying, I feel like dying
Lyrics submitted by Tylercwxzy
I Feel Like Dying Lyrics as written by James Scheffer
Lyrics © Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC
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It's about getting so high on so many different drugs that you feel like it's an endless ascent into ecstacy. And when you come down you look around and realize that that feeling is gone, and then you start thinking about everything that's gone wrong or could go wrong or is going wrong, and it turns into an endless trail of paranoia and depression that you're causing just by thinking. The obvious solution is to do more drugs or die. And when you can't get any all you want to do is die. Obviously.
As for you people saying the song is 'eerie', you clearly do not know how it feels to be in that position. Not accusing you of anything, just saying. I find it to be a beautiful song that reveals the thoughts of someone who is clearly on drugs as he writes. The first time I heard it I was high, and the way the song is setup sent me into a trail of words and knowledge that I didn't even know I had, because it was knowledge that I had read about and just forgotten. But even though I couldn't confirm it, I knew that it was all true, and as I analyzed my own thought process I reeled out all sorts of randomized thoughts that were connected only in a third section of my brain that was operating independently of the other two. I had so many thought processes going that I eventually forgot what I was thinking about and just wanted to listen to the song.
I love this song. One particular aspect that I love so much is how he never actually says "I feel like dying," but lets the recorded loop say it. To me its like how when having thoughts like that, its hard to say them out loud, even to yourself, and that you would rather someone else do it.
Drugs.....damn.
this really is a cry for help in my opinion. feeling like dying is obviously not something thats a good thing, especially when that person is relating that to the feeling when coming down from drugs. the whole chorus, and song at that, have a very eerie feel to it.
I love this song but it's really eerie..
this is onea my fav. songs by lil wayne but the song is talking about addiction, and what happens to him becaus eof his addiction
this song is definately about being addicted and slowly getting worse and worse into it. he starts talking bout smokin weed, and then eventually startes talking about getting into things like xanax which is no better than doing dope and how the withdrawls feel like dying
well obviously this song is about falling deeper into drug addiction and when he comes down from being high, he feels like dying. the chorus and just the song in general defintitly has an feel to it but in my opinion thats what makes the song so good. and i absolutely love the chorus.
song was clearly written on ecstasy
this song is clearly more than just about drugs
when has he ever rapped without connotation or metaphors?
"I’m at the top of the top but still I climb And if I shall ever fall the ground will then turn to wine Pop, Pop, I feel like flying, then I feel like frying, then"
He's at the top of top (he's really high, duh) but still he climbs (takes more drugs) And if he shall ever fall (O.D.) the ground will then turn to wine (death, and not afraid of it, obviously since he knows it'll happen this way) Pop, pop, (more drugs) I fell like flying (reeaaally high) then I feel like frying (pain, near-death) then.. (gone)
how does what you just said make it more about drugs??? I see it from my own first hand experience....only when the drugs wear off and sobriety hits do I feel the depression or "feel like dying" and even as high as I can get, its never high enough...my life is my addiction and my addiciton is my life...