This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
so we are...
doubled over toilets.
trying to look skinny,
do you feel paper thin?
and soon as you blink,
you're back in the kitchen stuffing your face all over again.
and i drink to feel nothing at all and try and forget
all the lies that i told with the best of intentions.
i thought they'd come true, yeah, well they never did.
now i'm back in that little dive bar in Montana,
talking to the barkeep,
"hey, pour another one for me."
she said, "listen up son, you got alot of questions.
you won't find your answer at the bottom of a drink.
i've seen alot of things, boy.
try it out on me, boy..."
i've been living with debts unpaid,
and i pray to God for an angel to save me.
and an answer it came in the form of a friend.
he saved my life, but i couldn't save his.
and the Evil men still walking the streets.
it didn't seem fair cause he was only nineteen.
and every new kid that i meet,
could of used a friend like him...
and she said love's the vaccine.
it give you a cold to kill you disease.
and the hurt you feel is so temporary
compared to love.
well i lost my husband about four years ago.
and counting the day just makes me miss him more.
but if he were here i know he'd say,
Debra, my love, my one, my only.
i'm keeping a seat warm for you.
but before you join me, there's something you gotta do.
many a kids might walk through your bar...
looking for God amongst the drunks and the whores.
give them the vaccine, girl.
help the believe, girl.
well i've been living with debts unpaid.
and i pray to God for an angel to save me.
and an answer it came in the form of a friend.
and he saved my life, well i couldn't save his.
and the Evil men still walking the streets,
it didn't seem fair cause you should of took me.
and every new kid that i meet,
could of used a friend like him.
and she said loves the vaccine.
it give you a cold to kill your disease.
and the hurt you feel is so temporary,
compared to love...
so just love.
doubled over toilets.
trying to look skinny,
do you feel paper thin?
and soon as you blink,
you're back in the kitchen stuffing your face all over again.
and i drink to feel nothing at all and try and forget
all the lies that i told with the best of intentions.
i thought they'd come true, yeah, well they never did.
now i'm back in that little dive bar in Montana,
talking to the barkeep,
"hey, pour another one for me."
she said, "listen up son, you got alot of questions.
you won't find your answer at the bottom of a drink.
i've seen alot of things, boy.
try it out on me, boy..."
i've been living with debts unpaid,
and i pray to God for an angel to save me.
and an answer it came in the form of a friend.
he saved my life, but i couldn't save his.
and the Evil men still walking the streets.
it didn't seem fair cause he was only nineteen.
and every new kid that i meet,
could of used a friend like him...
and she said love's the vaccine.
it give you a cold to kill you disease.
and the hurt you feel is so temporary
compared to love.
well i lost my husband about four years ago.
and counting the day just makes me miss him more.
but if he were here i know he'd say,
Debra, my love, my one, my only.
i'm keeping a seat warm for you.
but before you join me, there's something you gotta do.
many a kids might walk through your bar...
looking for God amongst the drunks and the whores.
give them the vaccine, girl.
help the believe, girl.
well i've been living with debts unpaid.
and i pray to God for an angel to save me.
and an answer it came in the form of a friend.
and he saved my life, well i couldn't save his.
and the Evil men still walking the streets,
it didn't seem fair cause you should of took me.
and every new kid that i meet,
could of used a friend like him.
and she said loves the vaccine.
it give you a cold to kill your disease.
and the hurt you feel is so temporary,
compared to love...
so just love.
Lyrics submitted by DeathByPoison
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