This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I kept my mouth shut from the start
I guess I left you in the dark
You thought you knew me but you don't
You say you'll love me but you wont
When you find out who I am
I kept my mouth shut for too long
All this time you got me wrong
Now we're in this way too far
I'm about to break your heart
Tear everything we had apart
'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become
Won't keep my mouth shut anymore
I've had my share of closing doors
Now I know I'm not afraid
I know exactly what you'll say
But I'm sorry it's too late
'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
(I kept inside of me for all this time)
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
(Thought that I could make it work if I just tried)
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
(But I'm sorry to admit that I have lived a lie)
'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become
I kept my mouth shut for too long
Now I know that it was wrong
I wish I told you from the start
That this was never meant to last
We should've never gone this far
Won't keep my mouth shut anymore
I guess I left you in the dark
You thought you knew me but you don't
You say you'll love me but you wont
When you find out who I am
I kept my mouth shut for too long
All this time you got me wrong
Now we're in this way too far
I'm about to break your heart
Tear everything we had apart
'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become
Won't keep my mouth shut anymore
I've had my share of closing doors
Now I know I'm not afraid
I know exactly what you'll say
But I'm sorry it's too late
'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
(I kept inside of me for all this time)
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
(Thought that I could make it work if I just tried)
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah
(But I'm sorry to admit that I have lived a lie)
'Cause I'm feeling lost
When I'm in your arms
The reasons are gone
For why I was holding on to you
I tried so hard
To be the one
I don't like who I've become
I kept my mouth shut for too long
Now I know that it was wrong
I wish I told you from the start
That this was never meant to last
We should've never gone this far
Won't keep my mouth shut anymore
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WOW so me... well she was sorta scared of a commitment and doesnt really get attached.... she didnt say aything bout it and the relationship is really deep maybe just to him and she reallyd eosnt want to hurt him but she just doesnt feel anything for him besides friendship...
"'Cause I'm feeling lost When I'm in your arms The reasons are gone For why I was holding on to you I tried so hard To be the one I don't like who I've become"
she is feeling lost cuz she doesnt wnat to be inh is arms n she just doesnt wnat to break it to him so hard so she is really confused on what to do... She just feels the reasons are gone.........and she just trieddddddd to love him back u knwo reallyt ried but it just ddidnt came back.....
Yeah yeah, yeah yeah (I kept inside of me for all this time) Yeah yeah, yeah yeah (Thought that I could make it work if I just tried) Yeah yeah, yeah yeah (But I'm sorry to admit that I have lived a lie)
she kept the truth inside .............probably she thought if she put int he extra effort to love him back but it just didnt work.. onestly i feel her pain cuz u could see the hurt int he last part... she is really sorry that she has lived her lie.. and towards the ending i guess she learnt how not telling him really hurt him so she vows never to keep her mouth shut anymore... ONE OF MY FAVS ON THEIR CD... ~~~~ MILLY~~~~
This girl is being fake around him and doesn't like who she has become. She realises that she can't be with him and tried so hard to be with him.. but realises that it won't work out.
This song is about, when you are with somebody, and then u realize that...he\she doesn't complete you..he\she isn't what you need..but u keep trying, u found yourself lost..and then u realize that u can't continue like this..and then u broke up.
It happens a lot of times..=S
this song is great! one of my favourites from their album
I agree 100% with Purity.
I feel as though marusushi is wrong. Extremely wrong. Honestly, nothing in this song could be symbolism for anything you said. Sorry.
I believe that the song was suppose to be about a girl who wanted this guy so bad, that she pretended to be "his type" so he would like her. She wasn't planning on actually falling in love with him, and vice versa. Now she knows that they were in way too deep and she has to come clean and break up with him, because she knew that she was decieving him the whole time, and living a lie. She felt lost in his arms because he wasn't hugging her, he was hugging the person she pretended to be.
I think that this song is about the fact that she was with this one guy and maybe she had done bad things in the past which she doesn't want him to know about so she thinks that if she tells him the truth he wonn't love her anymore and he'll leave her, but she has realised that lying is not the way to go and she really needs to tell him the truth if she loves him. Overall i luv this song great for when you're feeling down catchya xx
This song actually reminds me of me... Because I led this guy on to believe i was someone who im not and then it was too late to tell him!! :O Great vocals!
When you love someone and they loves you back, but you know you aren't being yourself around them. When your whole relationship was based on one concept that, when under the microscope, cracked and splintered and you found yourself wondering what sort of foundation the love was even based on. You had let him speak for both of you because you had wanted it so badly, or maybe because you had no idea what you wanted but he was a nice enough person. Then, when you realize that he loves the surface of you and not the deep dark monster, and you have an epiphany: you would rather be the monster than a lie.