When I wake up
All bottled up
A ray of sunshine tells me I am not alone
For two long days
I�ve missed your face
And I�m in hell and I just want you to come home

All I am
All I sing
All I am
All I bleed�I bleed

I say I do anything for you
I�m dying old
I�ve come unglued

For, for all I am
For all I sing and all I was I swear I�m yours
Find, find the time
When time is lost I feel like I am not alive

I�m dying old

When you�re gone, I sleep alone
And there�s a window that I deny


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    I've come to believe that his love has passed. She's been dead for "two long days" and he's been drinking away his pain. He's really missing her and has been falling apart ("coming unglued"). He knows that by that "ray of sunshine" (sunshine meaning that she is up in heaven looking down) she will always be there but that isn't good enough and he feels like he's in hell without her. He's saying he will always be hers.

    Idk, thats all i can pull from it. I dont get the "And there’s the window that I deny" part but thats one of my favorite parts in the song. Any one else know?

    Lewey50on April 08, 2008   Link

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