In regards to the meaning of this song:
Before a live performance on the EP Five Stories Falling, Geoff states “It’s about the last time I went to visit my grandmother in Columbus, and I saw that she was dying and it was the last time I was going to see her. It is about realizing how young you are, but how quickly you can go.”
That’s the thing about Geoff and his sublime poetry, you think it’s about one thing, but really it’s about something entirely different. But the lyrics are still universal and omnipresent, ubiquitous, even. So relatable. That’s one thing I love about this band. I also love their live performances, raw energy and Geoff’s beautiful, imperfectly perfect vocals. His voice soothes my aching soul.
I'm so tired of the stupid games you play
If I sat outside would you come watch me wait?
If I had a gun and shot it at your face?
Would you promise not to get out of the way?
If you happen to be able to avoid
My first attack I'll put a knife against your throat
And cut an inch for every time I lost my self-control
When you made me do the things I did at night when I got home
But I thought you'd change, and realize that today(Today)
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me,
(I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave me now, beggin you to die painfully(to die painfully)
This brings us to the backup of my plan,
Maybe I'll just have to strangle you with my bare hands,
Then you'll have to adhere to my demands,
And occupy a shallow grave, as shallow as you are
But I thought they'd change, and things just stay the same,
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me,
(I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave me now, beggin you to die
Sometimes intent leads, leads to stagnance,
And stagnance, leads to contempt, contempt leads to,
The present
Sometimes intent leads, leads to stagnance,
And stagnance, leads to contempt, contempt leads to,
The present
But I thought you'd change, and realize that today(Today)
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me,
(I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave me now, beggin you to die painfully
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me
If I sat outside would you come watch me wait?
If I had a gun and shot it at your face?
Would you promise not to get out of the way?
If you happen to be able to avoid
My first attack I'll put a knife against your throat
And cut an inch for every time I lost my self-control
When you made me do the things I did at night when I got home
But I thought you'd change, and realize that today(Today)
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me,
(I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave me now, beggin you to die painfully(to die painfully)
This brings us to the backup of my plan,
Maybe I'll just have to strangle you with my bare hands,
Then you'll have to adhere to my demands,
And occupy a shallow grave, as shallow as you are
But I thought they'd change, and things just stay the same,
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me,
(I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave me now, beggin you to die
Sometimes intent leads, leads to stagnance,
And stagnance, leads to contempt, contempt leads to,
The present
Sometimes intent leads, leads to stagnance,
And stagnance, leads to contempt, contempt leads to,
The present
But I thought you'd change, and realize that today(Today)
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me,
(I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave me now, beggin you to die painfully
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me
(Evelyn) (I know you lied) I'd tell you that I'm alive for the first time
And I'm beggin you to leave here now, beggin you to stay away from me
Lyrics submitted by bleedinghername
Existing in a Crisis (Evelyn) Lyrics as written by Jack A O'shea Anthony S Raneri
Lyrics © CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC
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