My mouth is a jail cell
The secrets peek between the gaps in my teeth
And even though they're dying, yeah
Pray for sunlight,
They'll pray for sunlight

Wish my words came out less frantic
And more romantic
But these bathroom walls
And your callused hands make me scream for sunlight
Scream for sunlight

When I say I'll be cavalier
And when you undress me I'll pretend not to care
Because I am a soldier
Yeah, I am a soldier
And I'll stare tight lips into space
So while your greedy hands take what they can get
All they get is me

And I swear (I swear)
I swear (I'll be) so cavalier
And I swear (I swear)
I swear (I'll be) so cavalier when you're here

I know that every single talk show will tell me I should let it out, let it out
Their make up makes it seem so made up, I watched them all let it out, let it out
But there's no microphones inside these aching b-b-bones
I said that there's no microphones inside these aching b-b-bones

And I swear (I swear)
I swear (I'll stay) so cavalier
And I swear (I swear)
I swear (I'll be) so cavalier when you're here

And I'm addressing it now
Fight this war with my mouth
Letting it out, I'm letting it out, oh
And I'm addressing it here
Fight this war with my tears
Letting it out, I'm letting it out, oh
I've been addressing it wrong
I'll fight this war with my songs
I'm letting it out, I'm screaming it out

I was a soldier, soldier, soldier
I thought I was a soldier, soldier, soldier


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    Does it matter why the song was written? No. A song does not have one meaning, but many, as with all things. The songwriter wrote it for himself, but also for everyone else. The intentions of a songwriter when writing is for his or her song to impact/affect every person differently. Each person is meant to get their own meaning out of it. So despite the meaning he implied for himself, what do you get out of it? What is it telling you? What emotions do you feel when you read it? How can you relate this to yourself or someone you know? How does it help you understand something?

    Questions like these are what you should be asking yourself when you comment on a song. Then comment telling us all what YOU got out of it, that is what we are really curious about.

    =]

    tiababyXDon June 13, 2009   Link
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    this is a weird song its good but its really weird with the beats and stuff.

    _andrewon July 23, 2005   Link
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    i love this song. i really think it's about molestation/rape.

    ibrokeupon August 08, 2005   Link
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    i adore this song and this band. this is one of my favorite songs for the moment.

    kinixtionon September 24, 2005   Link
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    I don't think this song is about being molested or raped. Just a messed up relationship

    wiseaimeeon January 22, 2006   Link
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    i just saw them play last night and these guys are amazing. this song rocks.

    HeyNiceGetson January 28, 2006   Link
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    for some reason this song reminds me of bjork.....but yeah i agree with ibrokeup, this song seems like its about getting raped by someone close to you.

    saksjf123on June 14, 2006   Link
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    this song is indeed about rape. a member of the band was molested by a priest

    "I know that every single talk show will tell me I should let it out, let it out Their make up makes it seem so made up, I watched them all let it out, let it out"

    refering to the church scandal when everybody was pubicly coming out about molestation on talkshows and such.

    a friend of mine knows the band really well and runs their street team. this is how i know.

    Beaner Brendanon June 21, 2006   Link
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    this song is indeed about rape. a member of the band was molested by a priest

    "I know that every single talk show will tell me I should let it out, let it out Their make up makes it seem so made up, I watched them all let it out, let it out"

    refering to the church scandal when everybody was pubicly coming out about molestation on talkshows and such.

    a friend of mine knows the band really well and runs their street team. this is how i know.

    Beaner Brendanon June 21, 2006   Link
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    this is one of my favorite song

    and it is about being raped

    momentumon August 06, 2006   Link

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