He reuses the verse melody from the previous album's "Dirty Little Religion", the topics of the verses are all over the place, and he packs too many words into one line (goes to show...) and too few in another (it's pretty hard to find), and rhymes "Henley Regatta" with "Persona non grata", but gets away with it all as only he could.
Stressed out and messed up
I did it again
The final push is always the hardest
Still I'm hanging on
Please don't let me fall
I think I need you
I said some things that probably hurt
But none of them were true
Broken and torn up
What will it take to mend
Here we lie on broken ground
Can't we stand up again
Please don't leave me down
I only want to be with you
I said some things I can't take back
But still I want to try to make it through
This is my apology
Does it mean anything
I'd die to make you happy
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
This is my apology
I wish I could give you more
I'd do anything if you'd forgive me
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
I treated you like people from the past
I should have known better
You don't deserve to be treated like them
I should show you I think you're special
I don't want to put my scars on you
They're mine and I'm the one who should deal
I don't want to be the one to drag you down
I want to be the one to kiss away your tears
No words can explain how I feel when I see your face
I just want you to know whatever happens I'm here
I could never express how much I care for you
Even if you decide to go I love the way you made me feel
So thank you and I'm sorry
I never wanted you to feel an ounce of pain
And for me to be the one who caused it
I'd do anything to take that feeling away
This is my apology
Does it mean anything
I'd die to make you happy
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
This is my apology
I wish I could give you more
I'd do anything if you'd forgive me
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
Someday you'll understand the things I couldn't say
I want to tell you right now but it has to wait
Someday you'll understand everything
I promise and I'm sorry
I did it again
The final push is always the hardest
Still I'm hanging on
Please don't let me fall
I think I need you
I said some things that probably hurt
But none of them were true
Broken and torn up
What will it take to mend
Here we lie on broken ground
Can't we stand up again
Please don't leave me down
I only want to be with you
I said some things I can't take back
But still I want to try to make it through
This is my apology
Does it mean anything
I'd die to make you happy
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
This is my apology
I wish I could give you more
I'd do anything if you'd forgive me
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
I treated you like people from the past
I should have known better
You don't deserve to be treated like them
I should show you I think you're special
I don't want to put my scars on you
They're mine and I'm the one who should deal
I don't want to be the one to drag you down
I want to be the one to kiss away your tears
No words can explain how I feel when I see your face
I just want you to know whatever happens I'm here
I could never express how much I care for you
Even if you decide to go I love the way you made me feel
So thank you and I'm sorry
I never wanted you to feel an ounce of pain
And for me to be the one who caused it
I'd do anything to take that feeling away
This is my apology
Does it mean anything
I'd die to make you happy
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
This is my apology
I wish I could give you more
I'd do anything if you'd forgive me
You can have my world
Because if you're not in it I don't need it anymore
Someday you'll understand the things I couldn't say
I want to tell you right now but it has to wait
Someday you'll understand everything
I promise and I'm sorry
Lyrics submitted by NothingFinal
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Like a lot of the other comments are saying, I think this mainly about voyeurism. If the song was about his girlfriend, then why would he use the word spy. If you are a spy it means you shouldn't be caught, that is kind of the whole point, and if you are a voyeur, the whole point of the pleasure you get from it, is the fact that the other people don't know you are watching them. See a bit of a connection there?
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I think your first comment is closer to being accurate. The singer/song writers state "Millions of eyes can see, yet why am i so blind!? When the someone else is me, its unkind its unkind". I believe hes referring to the girl toying with him and using him. He wants something deeper with her, thats why he allows himself to be as a puppet (even though for her fun and games) as long as it makes her happy. But he knows deep down that she doesnt really want to be serious with him and thats what makes him.
it means something to actually hear it from someone as opposed to lyrical word search, crossroaddemon puzzles. I'm mad because I still want you. I'm confused because I still love you. I hate myself for being so stupid and naive and trusting. I hate that all those years went by and I never knew anything. I hate that people i trusted to protect me only exploited and used me..set me up to leave me for dead. All because I loved?? Because I was too sappy sweet?