And when the world will stay the same but your place in relation to it has changed. And when the word begins to lose its power to restore and soothe. And when the blackness starts its spread from behind your tired head. What taxes now was once your wealth, what sucks and aches becomes your health, oh

And when the night spreads into day one unbroken spread of gray. When the darkness fills the space between the bone and skin of your face. Seeps between your skull and brain as input filters through its stain. The tightness in your brow contains what poisoned yesterday but now sustains.

And when the night begins its flow and you watch yourself give up control. What was cold now keeps you warm and you watch your louder self transform. And the one you love keeps the faith that you can rise above but if you kept faith with yourself, you might admit you could use some help.

Remove yourself and study close when next the dark begins its flow. The clinical the problem be remove yourself and you will see when next the blackness flow begins, I eat your pills you eat my sins. Take me back to prouder days but please don't take my anger away.

Breakdown:
And I don't pray but I humble myself.
I am on my knees today.
I don't pray.


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St. John The Divine song meanings
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    General CommentI think these are the correct words, they sound right to my ears.
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    And when the world will stay the same
    But your place in relation to it has changed
    And when the word begins to lose
    Its power to restore and soothe
    And when the blackness starts its spread
    From behind your tired head
    What taxes now was once your wealth
    What sucks and aches becomes your health

    And when the night spreads into day
    In one unbroken spread of gray.
    And when the darkness fills the space
    Between the bone and skin of your face
    Seeps between your skull and brain
    As input filters through its stain
    The tightness in your brow contains
    What poisoned yesterday but now sustains

    And when the night begins its flow
    And you watch yourself give up control
    When what was cold now keeps you warm
    And you watch your outer self transform
    And the one you love
    Keeps the faith that you can rise above
    But if you've kept faith with yourself
    You might admit that you could use some help

    Remove yourself and study close
    When next the dark begins its flow
    The clinical the problem be
    Remove yourself and you will see
    When next the blackness flow begins
    I eat your pills, you eat my sins
    You take me back to prouder days
    But please don't take my anger away

    I don't pray
    But I humble myself
    I am on my knees today
    I don't pray
    FoolThemAllon April 10, 2006   Link
  • +1
    General CommentNo, this song like most Ted Leo stuff is about his surroundings. St John the Divine is a church in New York.

    He's paralleling religion and anti-depressants. It's a stinging social commentary as most Ted Leo stuff is.

    Ted, as anyone else that's been forced to choke back SSRIs can tell you that the loss of emotion (hate and anger being the strongest a human posesses) is terrifying, especially for an artist who needs to draw on them.

    And I really doubt he'd be very anti-drug ;)

    it most certainly is

    I am on my knees today
    Toadon January 05, 2007   Link
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    General CommentI am surprised no one has mentioned St. John of the Cross.

    en.wikipedia.org/wiki/…

    He was a 16th century christian mystic who authored the Dark Night of the Soul. It's commonly referenced concept for a dark (depressing, fearful, lonely, etc) period one must go to attain some necessary personal rebirth.

    Just a thought, from which you add some more meanings if you like.
    stk137on July 15, 2007   Link
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    General CommentAm I the only one that hears 'i am on my knees today' instead of 'i am on my way today'? I've listened to the song some 100 times and still hear 'knees'.
    blackstarguitaron July 02, 2004   Link
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    General Commentblackstarguitar, I 100% agree with you (inaccurate lyrics on this site!? Who'd have thought it!)
    ma0smon September 18, 2004   Link
  • 0
    General CommentFrom looking on Timorousme.org, I guess this song has some references to the Gospel of John in the New Testament. Similar lines, themes, etc.
    Lerxson February 06, 2005   Link
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    General CommentI think it's an anti-drug song.

    The first verse is key: "the world will stay the same but your place in relation to it has changed," refers to hallucinations.

    " And when the word begins to loose its power to restore and soothe" is about how you begin turning to drugs more and more for comfort.

    "Well taxes now was once your wealth. When tucks and aches becomes your health," is basically about addiction, and how you begin to need the drug.

    The next two verses just talk about the spread of the addiction, and how things are getting "blacker".

    I'm not totally sure how the last verse relates, but there's my interpretation :)
    whatslifelikeon December 13, 2005   Link
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    General CommentI do hate how this site tends to post innacurate lyrics.
    medicaldoctor420on June 24, 2006   Link
  • 0
    General CommentSt. John --> St. John's Wort --> Anti-depressant
    canadaORbust4534on March 24, 2007   Link
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    My InterpretationToad and stk137's comments make sense together, if the commentary on anti-depressants is that they deprive people of St. John's necessary dark period. What I'm wondering is if Ted thinks anti-depressants are just over-diagnosed, or completely wrong in all cases.
    SingingMongooseon June 20, 2009   Link

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