Silence

I have to wonder whether a lot of people have heard the original version of this song from the album, "Karma". Since there have been at least 10 dance/trance remixes in the last 13 years, I think the original has gotten lost in the shuffle a bit.

The original version of the song is MUCH darker than any of the remixes (save maybe Fade's Sanctuary mix, which was, I believe, the first remix ever done of this song).

Taken in the context of a club remix, the track loses a lot of its darkness, bleakness, despair and rage. The themes seem a little less depressing when the vox and lyrics are set to an upbeat, faster tempo remix. I believe there are only two remixes (again, Fade's Sanctuary mix, and Above & Beyond's 21st Century) that give even the slightest nod to the gorgeous cathedral choirs and gregorian chant from the original song, which are a very significant part of the reason I love this song so much.

Don't get me wrong, I think some of the remixes of "Silence" have been absolutely brilliant, but for me, all of them seem to lack depth, particularly some of the more recent ones like the Lissat & Voltaxx remix and the Niels van Gogh mix. Even the Tiesto (who I am a huge fan of) remix is at times loud and obnoxious. I'll give him credit though, I think he captured a lot of the darkness of the original, but in also trying to capture the power, he used volume rather than letting Sarah McLachlan's voice do the work. As I said, I think the Sanctuary mix by Fade is probably the best mix of all that have been done.

Now, as far as meaning goes, if you take the song in the context of the original, I think the themes are extremely sinister. For a long time, I interpreted them as having to do with drugs, and I still believe they can be looked at that way, but the more I really pay attention, I am really coming to think that the song is about severe depression and suicide, and the desperation of just simply needing to be SEEN for who and what we really are, instead of the masks we hide behind that conceal our deepest fears and bleakest feelings. I lost my father-in-law to suicide earlier this year, and I think that may have been the catalyst that changed my perspective about this song. The lyrics are so sad, so desperate, begging for a release from the pain of living- whether that means actual physical death, or some kind of way to just release all the building pressure and darkness within. I think the character Sarah McLachlan is singing from has reached a crossroads: she can no longer deal with what's going on in her mind, so she has two choices: Reaching out for help, whether that's from her idea of God, or simply from another person. The alternative for her is ending her own life. I think we've all been where she is at one point or another in our lives, when we have this internal dialogue going on with the universe, or God, or simply ourselves...desperately pleading for things to change, one way or another.

"Give me release; Witness me; I am outside; Give me peace."

She wants nothing more than to be released from the hell of her own brain. She's outside of herself looking in, the sole being in her dark world. She feels invisible, and is begging for someone to see her (Witness me).

"Passion choke the flower; 'Til she cries no more; Possessing all the beauty; Hungry still for more."

The first stanza in this verse (Passion choke the flower; 'til she cries no more) suggests that she has used sex or other forms of superficial human contact to fill the void inside herself, and as a means to quiet the screaming in her head. She has lived her life always striving to be loved and accepted, making herself beautiful on the outside, but as beautiful as the mask she wears is, she is crumbling and disintegrating inside.

"Heaven holds a sense of wonder; And I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up When the rage in me subsides."

To me this suggests she has been trying so hard to live up to some unattainable ideal that she's never experienced (heaven), and she's always thought she'd get there if she could be strong and overcome the darkness that swirls around in her brain. "Heaven" could also suggest the lure of death; to be free from the pain.

"I can't help this longing; Comfort me; I can't hold it all in; If you won't let me."

She's screaming for help. She's longing for death, and wants nothing more than for someone to just SEE her, and recognize what she's going through. She's never told anyone about the darkness, and has always been able to hide it so well, but she knows if someone actually SAW her, and was able to make her open up just a little bit, there's no way she'd ever be able to keep it all bottled up inside anymore and feel like she has to continue to deal with it alone. It would be like opening a flood gate, but in order to do that, she needs someone to pull the pin and open the door.

"In this white wave, I am sinking, in this silence; In this white wave, in this silence I believe; I have seen you, in this white wave, you are silent; You are breathing, in this white wave I am free."

In the end, I believe she has chosen death. I think the 'white wave' represents death itself. She's letting it wash over her and she is finally set free from her pain. In death, she finally catches a glimpse of the person she desperately wanted to become: happy, at peace, and living the life she always wanted. That image of herself has finally appeared. She has accepted that the fight is over, and she's finally laid down her sword and is succumbing to the only thing she knows will give her the peace she could never find anywhere else.

The latin at the beginning already proposes that the person believes in Jesus, and is religious.

Give me release- She’s asking God to release her from her sick body. Witness me- She’s asking Him to judge her. I am outside- Her spirit is outside of her body, and she is stuck between life and death. Give me peace- She’s asking God to accept her, so she can be at peace.

Heaven holds a sence of wonder- She wonders what it’s like in heaven. And I wanted to believe that I’d get caught up when the rage in me subsides- She believes she will go to heaven when she releases from this great pain that’s raging inside of her (when she dies).

Passion chokes the flower till she cries no more- Cigarettes (her passion) slowly choked her to death. She was fragile, like the flower. Possessing all the beauty, hungry still for more- Possessing all the beautiful things life gave her, that wasn’t enough to her; and was craving for more passion.

I can’t help this longing- She can’t wait anymore now, ready to die and go to heaven. Comfort me- She’s asking for God to take her, asking for death. I can’t hold it all in if you won’t let me- She can’t live like this anymore, the state of her body (pain) and mind (longing to find peace). Can’t hold on to life anymore if He doesn’t let her go to heaven soon enough, so considering suicide.

In this white wave I am sinking, in this silence- She is dying and being overwhelmed with this bright light. She can’t see or hear anymore (white wave and silence), she is losing her senses, a connection with her body, and her spirit is left to linger here and find out if God will take her to heaven. In this white wave, in this silence I believe- She believes she will go to heaven.

I have seen you in this white wave, you are silent You are breathing in this white wave
I am free

She finally sees God in the white light of silence. He’s alive and existing (breathing) and has come for her, and she is on her way to heaven. She finally finds peace and freedom.

This song is about the inner peace you are granted when there is nothing left to hold onto anymore; the final straw, the forced acceptance, the inner strength reserved for utmost despair comes alive

I think it is amazing how the Tiesto Remix can give these lyrics such a different meaning. The Original Delerium song sounds like depression and a longing for release from the frustration of life. While in the Tiesto version it gives the feeling of an emotional release. Both very different and very good

I forgot to explain the meaning of the word FLOWER in this song.

When she got sick, she became like a flower- unable to do anything about it, run away from it or fight it. She’s aware she’ll never get well again, and is exactly where she is now, not going anywhere. Just standing still and powerless, waiting for the torment to finaly take the course. And not only for a moment, but for the uncertain period of time.

The song's disclosure covers:

-- Desire for identity and peace -- Suppressed voracity -- Fervor, but disconnection for and from euphoria -- Desperation -- Liberation, or deterioration

The connotations can be religious. However, I would suggest that they lyrics are more desperate for faith - in anything that the writer can say she is proud of. Heaven is the longing reverie of her desires, and it does not exist to her while her rage cannot subside, which she believes will not. Whether Heaven be a dream in substitution for reality, or a religious one.

"In this white wave," her definite failures, limitations, purpose of existence is discerned. Whatever she is, or has been, can succumb to this "white wave" she can finally believe that a concept like euphoria or compassion exists. The color white can be associated with death and or purity. Death doesn't discerns, but doesn't discriminate. You are, at least, accepted. With purity, it can symbolize a spiritual or religious notion that is entirely ambiguous.

The song is is passionate, potent, independent, daunting but relieving.

The song's disclosure covers:

-- Desire for identity and peace -- Suppressed voracity -- Fervor, but disconnection for and from euphoria -- Desperation -- Liberation, or deterioration

Sorry for the second post below, I needed to make corrections The connotations can be religious. However, I would suggest that they lyrics are more desperate for faith - in anything that the writer can say she is proud of. Heaven is the longing reverie of her desires, and it does not exist to her while her rage cannot subside, which she believes will not. Whether Heaven be a dream in substitution for reality, or a religious one.

"In this white wave," her definite failures, limitations, purpose of existence is discerned. Whatever she is, or has been, can succumb to this "white wave" she can finally believe that a concept like euphoria or compassion exists. The color white can be associated with death and or purity. Death discerns, but doesn't discriminate. You are, at least, accepted without any hesitation, i.e. "In this silence I believe." With purity, it can symbolize a spiritual or religious notion that is entirely ambiguous.

The song is is passionate, potent, independent, daunting but relieving.

I think this song numerous interpretations depending on whether or not you take the lyrics literally or metaphorically. The latter interpretation is consistent with a heroin trip, which is having biblical, profound effects on the mind. Strong references to a heroin trip throughout, such as "peace", "release", "flower" and "longing". Heroin or not, the rage in the writer has subsided and she is now at the end of some kind of emotional journey, consistent with somebody that is going through the 5 stages of grief, so perhaps the song is about somebody grieving the loss of a loved one. The ending which details a visual of somebody clearly in an out-of-this world context, i.e. in water and breathing, if taken literally may indicate a more sinister "escape" by means of suicide.

I agree, Miss Mess! It's about that little place inside of you that survives all pain. The spirit in you that is not only stronger than anything that happens to it, it can STILL kick its ass! ;-) Great song. I love the music as well as the lyrics.

I think this song is about an inner agner or rage that you can't quite get rid of you so you can be at peace with yourself...I don't quite get the "white wave" part. I love this song!