"Silence" as written by Sarah Mclachlan, Bill Leeb and Rhys Fulber....
Give me release
Witness me
I am outside
Give me peace
Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

Passion
Chokes the flower
Until she cries no more
Possessing all the beauty
Hungry still for more

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

I can't help this longing
Comfort me, I can't hold it all in
If you won't let me

Heaven holds a sense of wonder
And I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up
When the rage in me subsides

In this white wave
I am sinking
In this silence
In this white wave
In this silence I believe

In this white wave
I am sinking
In this silence
In this white wave
In this silence I believe

I have seen you
In this white wave
You are silent
You are breathing
In this white wave I believe

(I am free)

(I am free)


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"Silence [DJ Tiesto in Search of Sunrise Remix]" as written by Sarah Mclachlan, Bill Leeb, Rhys Fulber

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  • +6
    My InterpretationI have to wonder whether a lot of people have heard the original version of this song from the album, "Karma". Since there have been at least 10 dance/trance remixes in the last 13 years, I think the original has gotten lost in the shuffle a bit.

    The original version of the song is MUCH darker than any of the remixes (save maybe Fade's Sanctuary mix, which was, I believe, the first remix ever done of this song).

    Taken in the context of a club remix, the track loses a lot of its darkness, bleakness, despair and rage. The themes seem a little less depressing when the vox and lyrics are set to an upbeat, faster tempo remix. I believe there are only two remixes (again, Fade's Sanctuary mix, and Above & Beyond's 21st Century) that give even the slightest nod to the gorgeous cathedral choirs and gregorian chant from the original song, which are a very significant part of the reason I love this song so much.

    Don't get me wrong, I think some of the remixes of "Silence" have been absolutely brilliant, but for me, all of them seem to lack depth, particularly some of the more recent ones like the Lissat & Voltaxx remix and the Niels van Gogh mix. Even the Tiesto (who I am a huge fan of) remix is at times loud and obnoxious. I'll give him credit though, I think he captured a lot of the darkness of the original, but in also trying to capture the power, he used volume rather than letting Sarah McLachlan's voice do the work. As I said, I think the Sanctuary mix by Fade is probably the best mix of all that have been done.

    Now, as far as meaning goes, if you take the song in the context of the original, I think the themes are extremely sinister. For a long time, I interpreted them as having to do with drugs, and I still believe they can be looked at that way, but the more I really pay attention, I am really coming to think that the song is about severe depression and suicide, and the desperation of just simply needing to be SEEN for who and what we really are, instead of the masks we hide behind that conceal our deepest fears and bleakest feelings. I lost my father-in-law to suicide earlier this year, and I think that may have been the catalyst that changed my perspective about this song. The lyrics are so sad, so desperate, begging for a release from the pain of living- whether that means actual physical death, or some kind of way to just release all the building pressure and darkness within. I think the character Sarah McLachlan is singing from has reached a crossroads: she can no longer deal with what's going on in her mind, so she has two choices: Reaching out for help, whether that's from her idea of God, or simply from another person. The alternative for her is ending her own life. I think we've all been where she is at one point or another in our lives, when we have this internal dialogue going on with the universe, or God, or simply ourselves...desperately pleading for things to change, one way or another.

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    "Give me release;
    Witness me;
    I am outside;
    Give me peace."

    She wants nothing more than to be released from the hell of her own brain. She's outside of herself looking in, the sole being in her dark world. She feels invisible, and is begging for someone to see her (Witness me).

    "Passion choke the flower;
    'Til she cries no more;
    Possessing all the beauty;
    Hungry still for more."

    The first stanza in this verse (Passion choke the flower; 'til she cries no more) suggests that she has used sex or other forms of superficial human contact to fill the void inside herself, and as a means to quiet the screaming in her head. She has lived her life always striving to be loved and accepted, making herself beautiful on the outside, but as beautiful as the mask she wears is, she is crumbling and disintegrating inside.

    "Heaven holds a sense of wonder;
    And I wanted to believe that I'd get caught up
    When the rage in me subsides."

    To me this suggests she has been trying so hard to live up to some unattainable ideal that she's never experienced (heaven), and she's always thought she'd get there if she could be strong and overcome the darkness that swirls around in her brain. "Heaven" could also suggest the lure of death; to be free from the pain.

    "I can't help this longing;
    Comfort me;
    I can't hold it all in;
    If you won't let me."

    She's screaming for help. She's longing for death, and wants nothing more than for someone to just SEE her, and recognize what she's going through. She's never told anyone about the darkness, and has always been able to hide it so well, but she knows if someone actually SAW her, and was able to make her open up just a little bit, there's no way she'd ever be able to keep it all bottled up inside anymore and feel like she has to continue to deal with it alone. It would be like opening a flood gate, but in order to do that, she needs someone to pull the pin and open the door.

    "In this white wave, I am sinking, in this silence;
    In this white wave, in this silence I believe;
    I have seen you, in this white wave, you are silent;
    You are breathing, in this white wave I am free."

    In the end, I believe she has chosen death. I think the 'white wave' represents death itself. She's letting it wash over her and she is finally set free from her pain. In death, she finally catches a glimpse of the person she desperately wanted to become: happy, at peace, and living the life she always wanted. That image of herself has finally appeared. She has accepted that the fight is over, and she's finally laid down her sword and is succumbing to the only thing she knows will give her the peace she could never find anywhere else.
    mikeygoestohollywoodon August 10, 2011   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThis song is about the inner peace you are granted when there is nothing left to hold onto anymore; the final straw, the forced acceptance, the inner strength reserved for utmost despair comes alive
    Miss Messon June 19, 2002   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI think it is amazing how the Tiesto Remix can give these lyrics such a different meaning. The Original Delerium song sounds like depression and a longing for release from the frustration of life. While in the Tiesto version it gives the feeling of an emotional release. Both very different and very good
    SixofSpadeson February 19, 2007   Link
  • +1
    Song MeaningMy grandmother worte this song....Not long after she found she had lung cancer she finished it rite in time b4 she was to bad to do anything and she brought it somewhere to see if she can get and artits to make it happen and they said ok but would never ever do aything with it but kept tell her it takes alot of time to get started but they were deffnently going to do it. Yep she died before they did it and rite after they made song never once said that the SONG was written by her sad but true so i can tell extally what the song is saying;;;;;;give me release witness me i am outside give me peace she is askin god to release her from her sick body and witnenesss her meaning judge me cuz she belives in jesus !!! give me peace and to her heaven hold a since of wonders but she wanted to beleave that shed get caught meaning she will know instead of wonder when the rAGE IN HER SUBSIDEs.. Rage meaning pain very bad pain.. Passion chokes the flower till she cries know poseess all the beauty inside and still hungrey for more passion here mean how she loved them cigretts and chked her till she cryed no more meaning til it killed her posses all the beauty means all the beauty of beautiful hevaen it now possesing her and she hungery for more cuz it so goood i cant l help longin and i cant keep it all in if you dont let me meaning she can wiat anymore now ready to go to heaven she cant hold it all in meaing everything he just possesd her with if he dont let her meaing if ytou dont let me go to heavn
    and everythindg about the wite wave the slince and sinkinis means means that god has let her in and she is on her way have you ever haerd of people who come close to die they see white light most of them say that whats she saying she see gods he silent he brething now she know shes and heaven so she screams i am freee hope you can understand sorry dont have much edgcation but i did my best
    bchopon July 28, 2012   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThe song's disclosure covers:

    -- Desire for identity and peace
    -- Suppressed voracity
    -- Fervor, but disconnection for and from euphoria
    -- Desperation
    -- Liberation, or deterioration

    The connotations can be religious. However, I would suggest that they lyrics are more desperate for faith - in anything that the writer can say she is proud of.
    Heaven is the longing reverie of her desires, and it does not exist to her while her rage cannot subside, which she believes will not. Whether Heaven be a dream in substitution for reality, or a religious one.

    "In this white wave," her definite failures, limitations, purpose of existence is discerned. Whatever she is, or has been, can succumb to this "white wave" she can finally believe that a concept like euphoria or compassion exists.
    The color white can be associated with death and or purity. Death doesn't discerns, but doesn't discriminate. You are, at least, accepted. With purity, it can symbolize a spiritual or religious notion that is entirely ambiguous.

    The song is is passionate, potent, independent, daunting but relieving.
    Pulpappleon September 11, 2012   Link
  • +1
    Song MeaningThe song's disclosure covers:

    -- Desire for identity and peace
    -- Suppressed voracity
    -- Fervor, but disconnection for and from euphoria
    -- Desperation
    -- Liberation, or deterioration

    Sorry for the second post below, I needed to make corrections
    The connotations can be religious. However, I would suggest that they lyrics are more desperate for faith - in anything that the writer can say she is proud of.
    Heaven is the longing reverie of her desires, and it does not exist to her while her rage cannot subside, which she believes will not. Whether Heaven be a dream in substitution for reality, or a religious one.

    "In this white wave," her definite failures, limitations, purpose of existence is discerned. Whatever she is, or has been, can succumb to this "white wave" she can finally believe that a concept like euphoria or compassion exists.
    The color white can be associated with death and or purity. Death discerns, but doesn't discriminate. You are, at least, accepted without any hesitation, i.e. "In this silence I believe." With purity, it can symbolize a spiritual or religious notion that is entirely ambiguous.

    The song is is passionate, potent, independent, daunting but relieving.
    Pulpappleon September 11, 2012   Link
  • +1
    General CommentThe latin at the beginning already proposes that the person believes in Jesus, and is religious.

    Give me release- She’s asking God to release her from her sick body.
    Witness me- She’s asking Him to judge her.
    I am outside- Her spirit is outside of her body, and she is stuck between life and death.
    Give me peace- She’s asking God to accept her, so she can be at peace.

    Heaven holds a sence of wonder- She wonders what it’s like in heaven.
    And I wanted to believe that I’d get caught up when the rage in me subsides- She believes she will go to heaven when she releases from this great pain that’s raging inside of her (when she dies).

    Passion chokes the flower till she cries no more- Cigarettes (her passion) slowly choked her to death. She was fragile, like the flower.
    Possessing all the beauty, hungry still for more- Possessing all the beautiful things life gave her, that wasn’t enough to her; and was craving for more passion.

    I can’t help this longing- She can’t wait anymore now, ready to die and go to heaven.
    Comfort me- She’s asking for God to take her, asking for death.
    I can’t hold it all in if you won’t let me- She can’t live like this anymore, the state of her body (pain) and mind (longing to find peace). Can’t hold on to life anymore if He doesn’t let her go to heaven soon enough, so considering suicide.

    In this white wave I am sinking, in this silence- She is dying and being overwhelmed with this bright light. She can’t see or hear anymore (white wave and silence), she is losing her senses, a connection with her body, and her spirit is left to linger here and find out if God will take her to heaven.
    In this white wave, in this silence I believe- She believes she will go to heaven.

    I have seen you in this white wave, you are silent
    You are breathing in this white wave
    I am free

    She finally sees God in the white light of silence. He’s alive and existing (breathing) and has come for her, and she is on her way to heaven. She finally finds peace and freedom.
    Anchion August 05, 2014   Link
  • +1
    General CommentI forgot to explain the meaning of the word FLOWER in this song.

    When she got sick, she became like a flower- unable to do anything about it, run away from it or fight it. She’s aware she’ll never get well again, and is exactly where she is now, not going anywhere. Just standing still and powerless, waiting for the torment to finaly take the course. And not only for a moment, but for the uncertain period of time.
    Anchion August 06, 2014   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI agree, Miss Mess! It's about that little place inside of you that survives all pain. The spirit in you that is not only stronger than anything that happens to it, it can STILL kick its ass! ;-) Great song. I love the music as well as the lyrics.
    insatiableon June 19, 2002   Link
  • 0
    General CommentI think this song is about an inner agner or rage that you can't quite get rid of you so you can be at peace with yourself...I don't quite get the "white wave" part. I love this song!
    mitzmanxon July 11, 2002   Link

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