narcoplepsy: Well, the last verse is pretty clear. First of all "I believe in the Kingdom Come". In that context, when he says "you", he seems to mean Jesus ("carried the cross of my shame/you know I believe it"). Then he says "but"; though he believes in Jesus, the Kingdom Come, etc., he still hasn't found absolute certainty about God; he believes, but he's still searching. That's what I think the whole song is about: all the ways he's tried to find certainty about God. In the beginning, when he says, "Only to be with you", I think "you" is God (like in George Harrison's song "My Sweet Lord"). He's tried meditative practices ("sealed these city walls"), maybe passionate love? ("kissed honey lips/felt the healing fingertips"), he's "held the hand of the devil"; but he's still searching. I think almost everyone who seeks God feel this way.
narcoplepsy: Well, the last verse is pretty clear. First of all "I believe in the Kingdom Come". In that context, when he says "you", he seems to mean Jesus ("carried the cross of my shame/you know I believe it"). Then he says "but"; though he believes in Jesus, the Kingdom Come, etc., he still hasn't found absolute certainty about God; he believes, but he's still searching. That's what I think the whole song is about: all the ways he's tried to find certainty about God. In the beginning, when he says, "Only to be with you", I think "you" is God (like in George Harrison's song "My Sweet Lord"). He's tried meditative practices ("sealed these city walls"), maybe passionate love? ("kissed honey lips/felt the healing fingertips"), he's "held the hand of the devil"; but he's still searching. I think almost everyone who seeks God feel this way.