Both as a standalone and as part of the DSOTS album, you can take this lyric as read. As a matter of public record, Jourgensen's drug intake was legendary even in the 1980s. By the late 90s, in his own words, he was grappling with massive addiction issues and had lost almost everything: friends, spouse, money and had nearly died more than once. "Dark Side of the Spoon" is a both funny & sad title for an album made by a musical genius who was losing the plot; and this song is a message to his fans & friends saying he knows it. It's painful to listen to so I'm glad the "Keith Richards of industrial metals" wised up and cleaned up. Well done sir.
Funny how I find myself in love with you
If I could buy my reasoning, I'd pay to lose
One half won't do
I've asked myself, how much do you
Commit yourself?
It's my life, don't you forget
It's my life, it never ends (it never ends)
Funny how I blind myself, I never knew
If I was sometimes played upon, afraid to lose
I'd tell myself, what good you do
Convince myself
It's my life, don't you forget
It's my life, it never ends (it never ends)
I've asked myself, how much do you
Commit yourself?
It's my life, don't you forget
Caught in the crowd, it never ends
It's my life, don't you forget
Caught in the crowd, it never ends
It's my life, don't you forget
Caught in the crowd, it never ends
If I could buy my reasoning, I'd pay to lose
One half won't do
I've asked myself, how much do you
Commit yourself?
It's my life, don't you forget
It's my life, it never ends (it never ends)
Funny how I blind myself, I never knew
If I was sometimes played upon, afraid to lose
I'd tell myself, what good you do
Convince myself
It's my life, don't you forget
It's my life, it never ends (it never ends)
I've asked myself, how much do you
Commit yourself?
It's my life, don't you forget
Caught in the crowd, it never ends
It's my life, don't you forget
Caught in the crowd, it never ends
It's my life, don't you forget
Caught in the crowd, it never ends
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It's My Life Lyrics as written by Timothy Alan Friese-greene Mark David Hollis
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Great version of a great song,
Funny how I find myself In love with you (He is in love with someone but didn't realize it, he was in denial...) If I could buy my reasoning I'd pay to lose (Although he knows it's not right, he can't help but love this person and has lost his mind for them. If he purchase his mind back, he would still choose to love them despite knowing its wrong.)
One half won't do (He wants them completely)
I've asked myself How much do you Commit yourself? (He has asked himself how much he should he commit himself to a relationship that won't work or happen.)
It's my life Don't you forget It's my life It never ends (It never ends) (Here he is talking to himself, he reminds himself that maybe he is committing too much and that his life is maybe worth more than pursuing this wrong relationship. He can't decide whether to keep trying for it or let it go...the struggle never ends.)
Funny how I blind myself I never knew (He was in denial about his love for this person, and he keeps lying to himself to cover up the things that are wrong about it. He never realized just how much he does this.) If I was sometimes played upon Afraid to lose (The other person has sometimes played him for a sucker, used him or taken advantage of him. Rather than lose them, he has lied to himself to keep believing that they care.
I'd tell myself What good you do Convince myself (Even though the other person is playing him and treating him badly, he convinces himself that they do good things for him, although he is really just trying to hold on..)
It's my life Don't you forget It's my life It never ends (It never ends) (This chorus, he is telling himself that he has the right to love them if he wants to, despite that it is wrong. He keeps reassuring himself but never ending doubt eats at him.)
I've asked myself How much do you Commit yourself? (He wonders how much does he need to commit to this relationship to make it work, he is begining to wonder if it's worth it)
It's my life Don't you forget Caught in the crowd It never ends (He has come to this realization that his life is maybe worth more than trying to make this bad relationship happen or work out, but he can't get out of it, it's like being caught in a crowd and you just follow what everyone else is doing....he can't help loving them despite wanting to walk away. It's my life Don't you forget Caught in the crowd It never ends (He can't get away from his love for this bad relationship, it's a catch 22 situation where his mind is controlled by his emotions or lust. He just goes with his feelings instead of getting out. It is a battle within him that torments him constantly...)
It's my life Don't you forget Caught in the crowd It never ends
@gumtree I just registered here only to thank you for this detailed analysis of yours ! <br /> That´s exactly what I wanted to hear. <br /> After reading it, I´m starting to love this song even more, because I can totaly see myself in this song, that´s the story of my love. Thanks to you I have one more song to get through life with ! Big thanks again :)
@gumtree Really enjoyed reading your analysis. Ive always loved and been intrigued by the meaning of this song since it come out in 1984 when I was 19. I also sometimes wonder if he is in love and not just compromising himself which he knows he tends to do. He knows its his life and half measures won't do, but if he could buy his reasoning he'd still do it. Ultimately he gets lost in the crowd, a bit like life, secondary school or work.
@gumtree Glad to see an analysis that’s correct. Unfortunately some let a music video distract them from the song itself and the lyrics. It’s pretty simple he’s all or nothing, and or someone who doesn’t want to commit unless they’re in complete control of the other person.. actually sad song for a relationship like this. <br /> Individuality is Important, not to lose yourself in another or let them take who you are.