I am an American aquarium drinker
I assassin down the avenue
I'm hidin' out in the big city blinkin'
What was I thinkin' when I let go of you?

Let's forget about the tongue-tied lightning
Let's undress just like cross-eyed strangers
This is not a joke, so please stop smiling
What was I thinkin' when I said it didn't hurt?

I wanna glide through those brown eyes dreamin'
Take it from the inside, baby, hold on tight
You were so right when you said I've been drinkin'
What was I thinkin' when we said goodnight?

I wanna hold you in the Bible-black predawn
You're quite a quiet domino, bury me now
Take off your Band-Aid 'cause I don't believe in touchdowns
What was I thinkin' when we said hello?

I always thought that if I held you tightly
You would always love me like you did back then
Then I fell asleep and the city kept blinkin'
What was I thinkin' when I let you back in?

I am trying to break your heart
I am trying to break your heart
But still I'd be lying if I said it wasn't easy
I am trying to break your heart

Disposable Dixie-cup drinkin'
I assassin down the avenue
I'm hidin' out in the big city blinkin'
What was I thinkin' when I let go of you?

Loves you
I'm the man who loves you


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I Am Trying to Break Your Heart Lyrics as written by Jeffrey Tweedy Jay Bennett

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    Awesome song...I don't believe it's backwards at all, though but forwards.

    REEFPADLER and PJ10 have it. He's driving around shitfaced "I assassin down the avenue" and visits is ex, drunkenly reminiscing about their time together, the city lights "blinking" at him.

    "Let's forget about the toung-tied lightening/ let's undress just like cross-eyed strangers" as she smiles pathetically at him.

    She ends up giving in and he stays over and "then I fell asleep and the city kept blinking"

    He wakes up feeling shitty and regretful (and she too, probably) but all he can think of is that childish desire to be the winner: "I was trying to break your heart" when in fact it was his heart (too?) that was broken.

    The sound blips and erratic drum beats connote that drunken feeling. It's a sad, beautiful song.

    walkinjingleon July 02, 2005   Link

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