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This is EXACTLY how I feel about it... I'm in this situation where it's reaching the end of a 3 1/2 year relationship. It's sucks, but I'm tired. It's come to that point where I can no longer sit here and take the same shit over and over. Our good times are soo good, but our bad are just really bad. And I can't keep trying to make this work because I love his company. There's a lot missing from both parts of this situation and it really comes down to who we are as as individuals. We've grown apart and want different things. But it's just so hard for me to end it because that's my best friend I'm walking away from. That's who I'd call after anything happens during my day. There's gonna be a huge hole left in my heart where he use to be. But I just can't keep trying to make the wrong key fit the keyhole.

Damn, I can't help but suspect if I wrote this myself and just don't remember. Amazing how similar people's experiences can be.

I know this might be outdated and you might not ever read this but WOW!!! Very well said in how you interpret this song. I can relate to this in someway but my situation is a quite different. I was involved with another woman that i shouldn't have never been with because I was married. This woman decided to end our fling or relationship with me. However, we remained friends and still communicated but to me things never change in how I cared about her. Until this day and after a year she called it off, I still care alot about her but she doesn't care about me like she used too. That is the part that really tares me up because we worked for the same company and I still see her in some way. Like you said it just becomes sad to watch and its very sad to be in this kind of situation. At this point I fell like the creep, the weirdo because I shoulnt be here. So i am trying to stop caring for her and move on.

This is my current story...living this right now. never felt so low...this song is all i have.

@ME68 I feel really sad that my ex husband refused for me to be near to my family. He also had an affairs with many women including my best friend and family. It saddens me to think that they thought I didn’t care or wanted to be close to them. I have many regrets about not leaving my relationship earlier and going back to the people that mattered most to me.

@ME68 ~ again this song has come into my life and it's subtle mystical power draws me into it like a black hole consumes all. And so I thought I feed the demand it's gravity commands by trying to learn more about it, which brings me here and now......<br /> ** FIRST I'd like to say great job on the various iterations of interpretation. The explanation of the songs meaning posted here is interesting, well said, and has a lot of merit<br /> which very well captures the overall mood and is a likely explanation of lyric meaning. ALTHOUGH, I have to share an interpretation that came to me one dark evening that was an "Ah - Ha" moment, where I thought I nailed the song meaning and yet couldn't believe I never saw it so plainly before. SO NOW I WANT Share this to see what y'all think what I thought the lyrics could mean.......<br /> <br /> In short, I thought the song was about the final thoughts one might have after having deciding to commit me suicide, but sort of glamorizing a fantasy this person has of it's hoped for, and intended reason and impact this suicide will have on the world left behind....! <br /> This notion of the lyrics mean dawned on me one day while listening to it. I was shocked that I never recognized it before, nor ever heard any other suggestion about what was now obvious and simple about a song that had captured me long ago yet took 20 years to feel like I actually know what the song is truly about. Which is dark for how popular it is , yet still no certainty of it's true origin or meaning.<br /> <br /> The part in the song that brought about this epiphany was the second, 2nd verse. <br /> <br /> I don't care if it hurts - if dying hurts - already in pain<br /> <br /> I wanna have control - I get to choose how death comes to me - how it happens<br /> <br /> I want a perfect body - concerning the choice method of suicide in order to look good in the coffin during the important funeral processionals. *Suicide provides the opportunity to have control over maintaining a perfect body (fit for show) as in choosing to hang yourself, take excess pills, or hose from car exhaust ~VERSES~ a shotgun blast to the face, or a car wreck, cutting your veins and bleeding out.....for example. Further, if you want a perfect body, then you must take into account that dying by hanging might hurt tremendously and doesn't offer the seemingly more instantaneous no pain method a self inflicted gun shot to the head might bring..... <br /> <br /> "don't care if it hurts" - not as important as the impact felt by funeral attendance with an open casket. <br /> <br /> "I want a perfect soul" - any raised with religion says you go the hell for committing suicide, yet public out cry of pitty and grief for the poor victim's who's shamed weak soul that should get a pass from hell bc of no other choice<br /> <br /> <br /> I want you to notice <br /> When I'm not around - again the fantasy that there will be a huge void in life of the person he desires attention of. <br /> <br /> You're so fuckin' special" - viewed as an untouchable goddess as part of a deep obsession for an unattainable fantasy projection. <br /> <br /> I wish I was special. -. If I was special, then I wouldn't be this weirdo creep about to take extreme measures to hopefully get noticed. <br /> <br /> ANYWAY, that's what hit me one day listening to and thinking about this song I've heard and loved for so long, yet really don't know the true meaning behind the lyrics. <br /> Haha - here I am searching for and reading the popular explanations trying to get an answer, and found no other suggest my same relaxation. Ouch! Yet, love what I am reading. <br /> <br /> Just curious now how you all feel about my perceived alternative suggestion.<br /> <br /> Thanks for the ideas and consideration!<br /> <br /> Cheers