Wonderful

I am a newbie guys, so LMK if I cross over. This song is so beautifully written...musically. The lyrics are like pins in my eyeballs. Why? I hate when people buy into the theory that points to the bipolar disorder or the depression. I was a Psychiatry major, was also a musician, pianist. My ex fixed that, brought music back into my life than under the influence, it took away by maiming my hands, pulling both thumbs out and down to my forearm. I will never play again. To me, this song is about domestic violence, and no, there is no apology here, there never is, there is a mantra that is meant to lure you back only to have the same happen. Take a look, never says sorry, or that he wont do it again. NEARLY hit the face I love...they don't remember or they try to make you forget...I LIED LIED LIED...'how could think I really mean it' WRONG WRONG WRONG ...my guy would choose words like this 'i never said i wouldn't do it again'...not hear he only told me i was beautiful when i left him

' DID I TELL YOU I WAS OK? No way, way, way' - Guilting her to come back, nedy, not his fault. .. 'DID I TELL YOU I DIDN'T CRY', they never do, there is no remorse. 'OVER, REAL OVER, when I nearly it the face I love' ...anyone?
he is blaming the drugs, he was wasted, he overdid it. Nearly hit? Unlikely, I'd bet she heard 'Its not that bad' or he does not remember what he did 'SO HIGH I CAN'T GET OVER IT, SO DEEP I CAN'T GET UNDER IT' not bipolar in my book...read again...i think he is only admitting that he can't control how he uses, does not say he will stop this, hitting, but did I tell you youre wonderful...mind-F'ing 'SO TIRED OF PACKAGING THE ANGER' - ' if true BPD, he wouldn't remember a manic rage in that way, and BPD doesn't present that way, but addiction does. OK now: so tired of packing his anger...I think he is victimizing/blaming...'I can't help it, you get me so mad when you...' ...that's what I heard...here and in my past LAST THING if you don't hate me yet: addicts struggle with taking blame for anything, they will say they are wrong, they may promise never to do it again, never to use, hit, whatever, and will show remorse, but sociopath won't. Carefully chosen words, zero remorse, intent to do it again. Wrong? So what? No concern for consequence, feels immune to it. I will give you this: many addicts are sociopaths self-medicating and they suffer from childhood trauma...get a therapist not a shrink, no meds help a sociopath...I'd love a response, even if it is STFU!! Sorry, this song 'hit' me tonight and hard..he's gone, but I feel pain everyday