it could be about a movie this guy sees on the TV and when he starts drinking he passes out and dreams the movie is his life. He feels all the anguish of losing his lover and burying her, maybe in some ways this mirrors his life or is a 'fucked up fantasy', like he wishes he could fall asleep for eternity or have someone he really loves, even if he has to mourn them. When he wakes up the 'dream fades away' and leaves him confused and depressed wishing he had stayed 'away from all this TV', he knows the drinking is bad and that cant keep escaping to these fantasies but he can't help himself because it sounds like it has happened many times :'at times like this i wish i hadnt slept...'
it could be about a movie this guy sees on the TV and when he starts drinking he passes out and dreams the movie is his life. He feels all the anguish of losing his lover and burying her, maybe in some ways this mirrors his life or is a 'fucked up fantasy', like he wishes he could fall asleep for eternity or have someone he really loves, even if he has to mourn them. When he wakes up the 'dream fades away' and leaves him confused and depressed wishing he had stayed 'away from all this TV', he knows the drinking is bad and that cant keep escaping to these fantasies but he can't help himself because it sounds like it has happened many times :'at times like this i wish i hadnt slept...'