I believe it is more of self hating feeling. The song is saying that they believe they are dreaming too high, or for something they know that they don't deserve.
"I want all that is not mine", saying that what you want and long for, is completely out of your reach, and you feel like an idiot for wanting it because you know for a fact you just can't have it.
"In the darkness I will meet my creator and they will all agree that I'm a suffocator." I take this more religiously, interpreting that you've prayed thousands of times, asking and wondering if you are suffocating someone by any means, but longing for the answer that you aren't. Not in literal terms, but saying that you are too clingy, and attached to something you can not have.
"I should've stayed inside." Saying that their true self only comes out when the person is longing for something, and is in too much of a daze to realize how they could be jeopardizing their relationship. So, in response, the person is saying that they should have put on a mask, or acted differently, to hide the real way they feel, so that they don't lose the thing that isn't theirs. But it was too late. The longed figure must've already left.
I believe it is more of self hating feeling. The song is saying that they believe they are dreaming too high, or for something they know that they don't deserve.
"I want all that is not mine", saying that what you want and long for, is completely out of your reach, and you feel like an idiot for wanting it because you know for a fact you just can't have it.
"In the darkness I will meet my creator and they will all agree that I'm a suffocator." I take this more religiously, interpreting that you've prayed thousands of times, asking and wondering if you are suffocating someone by any means, but longing for the answer that you aren't. Not in literal terms, but saying that you are too clingy, and attached to something you can not have.
"I should've stayed inside." Saying that their true self only comes out when the person is longing for something, and is in too much of a daze to realize how they could be jeopardizing their relationship. So, in response, the person is saying that they should have put on a mask, or acted differently, to hide the real way they feel, so that they don't lose the thing that isn't theirs. But it was too late. The longed figure must've already left.