its my birthday in a couple of days and im turning 19, things arent going the way i imagined them would be when i was a child. I only have one really good friend from highschool who I am starting to feel doesnt think of me as that good of a friend, my younger cousin we havent hung out for a long time who used to be my best friend,my older cousin he might be seriously ill who i consider my brother since he is the one of the only people i can confide in and seek advice from,my dad worrying about our financial status, i am afraid to meet some girl i saw thinking that i am not good enough for her and regretting not taking that step not knowing what she'll think of me, i just hope things get better after i turn 19. i have reached the point where i must choose between what i've lost and what i stand to lose. will i be able to make a change for better in my life.what can i do? can someone teach me?
its my birthday in a couple of days and im turning 19, things arent going the way i imagined them would be when i was a child. I only have one really good friend from highschool who I am starting to feel doesnt think of me as that good of a friend, my younger cousin we havent hung out for a long time who used to be my best friend,my older cousin he might be seriously ill who i consider my brother since he is the one of the only people i can confide in and seek advice from,my dad worrying about our financial status, i am afraid to meet some girl i saw thinking that i am not good enough for her and regretting not taking that step not knowing what she'll think of me, i just hope things get better after i turn 19. i have reached the point where i must choose between what i've lost and what i stand to lose. will i be able to make a change for better in my life.what can i do? can someone teach me?