Lyric discussion by Zebracakes 

Cover art for First and Ellen lyrics by Modern Life Is War

I think this is a reflection. I think one of his big "motos" is for self truth and this is what this song is about. Its about a guy who looks back on his life, and sees that hes lived a life that was hollow, and just wasnt worth living really (rotting lifeless gray). This is just about him seeing that he wasnt living a good life, now is gonna change and be something good.