a temple corroded
eviction pending
embrace me, cold night
gray sky, streetlight
lyrical descension
attention fading
breathless, i'm a mess
kissless, i'm in distress
i'm barely breathing

this crowning anguish
locked up nervous reflex
i've got to build up from the inside
a relapse, reflection
distorted, repression
smiling spitefully
longing for you to sew up my seams
i'm barely breathing

i've abandoned old identities
skin i couldn't fit into
songs i couldn't write
my voice will fade into this starless night

can i get much blinder
can i kick myself much harder
have i accepted this
to torture myself
you can't see me
have i invented you
i'm barely breathing
and you're so easy to beleive in
and it's so depressing
that i'm always second guessing myself


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    "can i get much blinder? can i kick myself much harder? have i accepted this, to torture myself?" - this has to be the best part of the song.

    LetTheDaysExpireon June 27, 2003   Link
  • +1
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    My favorite of Chris's songs on Apathy and Exhaustion. I like the "I'm barely breathings" because they setup the best part of the song.

    ...You can't see me, Have I invented you? I'm barely breathing, you're so easy to believe in....

    R2kon March 21, 2006   Link
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    i absolutely love this song "i've abandoned old identities, skin i couldn't fit into, songs i couldn't write, my voice will fade into this starless night. "--my favorite lyrics from this song

    MisledPromise4uon July 23, 2002   Link
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    my favorite song on Apathy & Exhaustion. I love the "I'm barely breathing" at the end of each verse.

    Zedd138on July 29, 2002   Link
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    the intro is so great especailly this line - "old nights, gray sky, streetlight. lyrical descension. attention fading."

    larry arms owns you

    xserialchrisxon September 02, 2002   Link
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    General Comment

    Good song overall, especially when you consider thos through the state of mind of someone who has hit rock bottom.

    Josion February 02, 2005   Link
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    To me it seems like this song is about someone questioning their faith in religion

    tngbnhdon October 24, 2006   Link

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