I think much like another song “Anti-Matter” (that's also on the same album as this song), this one is also is inspired by a horrifying van crash the band experienced on Nov 3, 2022. This, much like the other track, sounds like it's an extension what they shared while huddled in the wreckage, as they helped frontman Garrett Russell stem the bleeding from his head wound while he was under the temporary effects of a concussion. The track speaks of where the mind goes at the most desperate & desolate of times, when it just about slips away to all but disconnect itself, and the aftermath.
Death is vital
Your actions make me go into denial
My love is like anathema
And now your stuck in this delima
(*music for chorus plays once*)
I love you and I want everything for you to be ok
I am to afraid to say
How much it is that I care
When your around me I get lost in emotion
Speechless
I love you
I don’t know what to do
You mean everything to me
And I would be so happy with you
Sickness
It attacks my soul
You are the virus
Your in control
I am the user
You are the drug
I am the slave
You are my love
Loving you is nothing short of godliness
When I’m around you I’m filled with happiness
And I don’t know what to do(*crescendo music & vox drop back*)
It’s hard
Living day by day
Knowing I can’t have you
But I wait around
Hoping one day things will change (*crescendo music & vox*)
Sickness
It attacks my soul
You are the virus
Your in control
I am the user
You are the drug
I am the slave
You are my love
You are
The virus
I accept you into me
You are everything to me
Sickness
It attacks my soul
You are the virus
Your in control
I am the user
You are the drug
I am the slave
You are my love
Your actions make me go into denial
My love is like anathema
And now your stuck in this delima
(*music for chorus plays once*)
I love you and I want everything for you to be ok
I am to afraid to say
How much it is that I care
When your around me I get lost in emotion
Speechless
I love you
I don’t know what to do
You mean everything to me
And I would be so happy with you
Sickness
It attacks my soul
You are the virus
Your in control
I am the user
You are the drug
I am the slave
You are my love
Loving you is nothing short of godliness
When I’m around you I’m filled with happiness
And I don’t know what to do(*crescendo music & vox drop back*)
It’s hard
Living day by day
Knowing I can’t have you
But I wait around
Hoping one day things will change (*crescendo music & vox*)
Sickness
It attacks my soul
You are the virus
Your in control
I am the user
You are the drug
I am the slave
You are my love
You are
The virus
I accept you into me
You are everything to me
Sickness
It attacks my soul
You are the virus
Your in control
I am the user
You are the drug
I am the slave
You are my love
Lyrics submitted by Syn40Degree
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