This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
Where the dragonflies float on
And little kids go chasing them
Till night time comes along
And the prophet of a discontent is gone
And the devil smiles as he pulls the wings off
Of the one who wrote and forgot the song
Well it's not my fault what you did
And it's not my fault we're young and stupid
Still I'm stuck in this nightmare joke
No company
My strings are broke
So I go out looking for the right one
A nice fat girl with a tight one
'Cause I, I, oh I always laugh when I'm hurting
When I was punk I was way more punk than you
What happened to our little tribe
On the tombstone it inscribed
And I, I didn't know my friends would leave me too
When I sold out I thought my lies out through and through
'Cause I, I, oh I always laugh when I'm hurting
Is anyone sick of being nervous and annoyed
Don't play with pins to fill the void
And I'm paranoid
And the legacy we've become
Into the high rockets, see the shotgun
To the burger bleeding on the plate
I'm holding out for a different fate
Yeah, no one's fooling anyone
Everyone struggles inside
And everyone has lied
Fooling anyone
No one is fooling anyone
Yeah, no one is fooling anyone
No one is fooling anyone.
Turn the music up louder
Spit out the taste of gun powder, and
We'll have a bonfire
Burn it all down, let's take it higher
I need a woman who makes my soul feel thick
She says love, I won't feel sick
When you say "how ya doing?"
We'll say, we are fine
Yeah, we're fine
I am fine.
Cause I, I, oh I always laugh when I'm hurting.
Oh I...
And little kids go chasing them
Till night time comes along
And the prophet of a discontent is gone
And the devil smiles as he pulls the wings off
Of the one who wrote and forgot the song
Well it's not my fault what you did
And it's not my fault we're young and stupid
Still I'm stuck in this nightmare joke
No company
My strings are broke
So I go out looking for the right one
A nice fat girl with a tight one
'Cause I, I, oh I always laugh when I'm hurting
When I was punk I was way more punk than you
What happened to our little tribe
On the tombstone it inscribed
And I, I didn't know my friends would leave me too
When I sold out I thought my lies out through and through
'Cause I, I, oh I always laugh when I'm hurting
Is anyone sick of being nervous and annoyed
Don't play with pins to fill the void
And I'm paranoid
And the legacy we've become
Into the high rockets, see the shotgun
To the burger bleeding on the plate
I'm holding out for a different fate
Yeah, no one's fooling anyone
Everyone struggles inside
And everyone has lied
Fooling anyone
No one is fooling anyone
Yeah, no one is fooling anyone
No one is fooling anyone.
Turn the music up louder
Spit out the taste of gun powder, and
We'll have a bonfire
Burn it all down, let's take it higher
I need a woman who makes my soul feel thick
She says love, I won't feel sick
When you say "how ya doing?"
We'll say, we are fine
Yeah, we're fine
I am fine.
Cause I, I, oh I always laugh when I'm hurting.
Oh I...
Lyrics submitted by fanatical3ebchic
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i'm pretty sure he says 'that ugly word that makes my throat feel thick" instead of "i need a woman who makes my soul feel thick"
but yeah, beautiful song. SJ is just showing his feelings about how everyone tries to cover up their inner emotions..how being 'fake' won't solve anything. everyone has problems. everyone lies. yet still, people create drama over liars and addicts just because they're afraid to admit their own problems. great song.