This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
From day to day I know that I'm in all of your conversations
You never have anything good to say about me
That's ok cause everyone's entitled to their own opinions
'Cause everyone's a critic, and even on your best days
Someone's got something bad to say
Yet I ignore the things I hear, ignore the things I fear
And look past all that tries to bring me down
And I know that I don't have much I
Sacrifice a good life while I watch these bills keep adding
Up and I know that I'm not getting any younger as another
Year passes by
I have to stop and wonder
If it's all really worth the struggle
Or that mirage of light I keep chasing at the end of the tunnel
Will get any brighter
Or will it just fade away the closer I get, the further it seems
From reaching my dreams
And I just don't know how much more I can
Take before I give up and throw it all away
When push comes to shove
You gotta hold on , you gotta be strong
And look for that light from above
Cause everyone's out to bring you down
And if you can't keep your head up
Then your lost
I've seen better days been told better ways
How to live and how to give, it's relative
I walk with sedatives it's hell I live
And home is sweet, I'm killing myself softly
My reflections show deep infections
It's hard to be, I look at myself, I look at this life
And all I feel is pain, god help me start again
I gotta keep on, I gotta keep on pushin' cause I
Some how some way keep comin' up short
Like everyday my minds playin' tricks on me
Everybody loves sunny days but I prefer
Grey ones and long nights because when the
Day comes, it's just another 24 and I'm still numb
Not so young I know what it takes, they say
Roll with the brakes and slip them ties with the fakes
I still get them shakes just thinkin' bout this
Ish right here two dub two maybe this gonna be
That year
Everyone has to pay a price no matter what we sacrifice
I hope it's worth it nothing is for certain
You never have anything good to say about me
That's ok cause everyone's entitled to their own opinions
'Cause everyone's a critic, and even on your best days
Someone's got something bad to say
Yet I ignore the things I hear, ignore the things I fear
And look past all that tries to bring me down
And I know that I don't have much I
Sacrifice a good life while I watch these bills keep adding
Up and I know that I'm not getting any younger as another
Year passes by
I have to stop and wonder
If it's all really worth the struggle
Or that mirage of light I keep chasing at the end of the tunnel
Will get any brighter
Or will it just fade away the closer I get, the further it seems
From reaching my dreams
And I just don't know how much more I can
Take before I give up and throw it all away
When push comes to shove
You gotta hold on , you gotta be strong
And look for that light from above
Cause everyone's out to bring you down
And if you can't keep your head up
Then your lost
I've seen better days been told better ways
How to live and how to give, it's relative
I walk with sedatives it's hell I live
And home is sweet, I'm killing myself softly
My reflections show deep infections
It's hard to be, I look at myself, I look at this life
And all I feel is pain, god help me start again
I gotta keep on, I gotta keep on pushin' cause I
Some how some way keep comin' up short
Like everyday my minds playin' tricks on me
Everybody loves sunny days but I prefer
Grey ones and long nights because when the
Day comes, it's just another 24 and I'm still numb
Not so young I know what it takes, they say
Roll with the brakes and slip them ties with the fakes
I still get them shakes just thinkin' bout this
Ish right here two dub two maybe this gonna be
That year
Everyone has to pay a price no matter what we sacrifice
I hope it's worth it nothing is for certain
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I dunno if its about that or not... all I know is that this song is da shit... n well Trik Turner is fuckin tite