This is a hauntingly beautiful song about introspection, specifically about looking back at a relationship that started bad and ended so poorly, that the narrator wants to go back to the very beginning and tell himself to not even travel down that road. I believe that the relationship started poorly because of the lines:
"Take me back to the night we met:When the night was full of terrors: And your eyes were filled with tears: When you had not touched me yet"
So, the first night was not a great start, but the narrator pursued the relationship and eventually both overcame the rough start to fall in love with each other:
"I had all and then most of you"
Like many relationships that turn sour, it was not a quick decline, but a gradual one where the narrator and their partner fall out of love and gradually grow apart
"Some and now none of you"
Losing someone who was once everything in your world, who you could confide in, tell your secrets to, share all the most intimate parts of your life, to being strangers with that person is probably one of the most painful experiences a person can go through. So Painful, the narrator wants to go back in time and tell himself to not even pursue the relationship.
This was the perfect song for "13 Reasons Why"
I know it maybe didn’t show
but I cared more than I think you know
now you’re gone and it feels weird
talking to your ghost, getting scared
but your not dead, just not with me and its really no mystery
he is new and just a change
you said I was fucked and acting deranged.
…But I think it’s just a fad And hearing that you get so mad.
But I was right with all the others even though you said they were like "brothers"
after time passed they grew old and you came back taking me out of the cold
how much more can I stand when will you just accept my hand
what we had was just seemed so great… and could not be traded for a first date.
Maybe I’m fighting a battle not worth fighting maybe I’m wasting both times with these writings
but right now I’m missing you so much. Missing your smell, missing your touch.
and I’m afraid I’ll be gone when you finally read this pathetic song
and know that I cared for you so fucking deeply know that what we had was treated so cheaply
my words are starting to cause me to cry thinking about your ghost and wanting to die…
but I cared more than I think you know
now you’re gone and it feels weird
talking to your ghost, getting scared
but your not dead, just not with me and its really no mystery
he is new and just a change
you said I was fucked and acting deranged.
…But I think it’s just a fad And hearing that you get so mad.
But I was right with all the others even though you said they were like "brothers"
after time passed they grew old and you came back taking me out of the cold
how much more can I stand when will you just accept my hand
what we had was just seemed so great… and could not be traded for a first date.
Maybe I’m fighting a battle not worth fighting maybe I’m wasting both times with these writings
but right now I’m missing you so much. Missing your smell, missing your touch.
and I’m afraid I’ll be gone when you finally read this pathetic song
and know that I cared for you so fucking deeply know that what we had was treated so cheaply
my words are starting to cause me to cry thinking about your ghost and wanting to die…
Lyrics submitted by imperfectHEROS
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