I want to live in the pretty sun
But daylight just makes me numb
So I cover up my stars with velvet drapes that kill rockstars,
Change my mood lick my wounds.

Trust will lead us to the truth
Drown my self in misery
Sleep with my enemy
Destroyed my destiny

Erase the memory
Of you,
Open my self to reveal my wounds and I find the memory of you.
I want to die on darkest night when there is none left to fight

Fill my bed with leopard fur
Think of you inside of her
For my latest sin until I'm happy in my skin.
Open my self to reveal my wounds and I find the memory of you

I ache for you
I ache for us, I pray for you
I pray for us, I wait for you
I wait deny thy lover and refute thy name first,

Last and always, when will you tell me the truth?
When will you tell you the truth?
When will you tell me the truth?
When you will you tell you...

My revenge on you will not kill you it will make you want to kill yourself.


Lyrics submitted by a Blasphemous Girl

Absolution Lyrics as written by Tairrie Beth Melanie Makaiwi

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    it seems the song is about her wanting to deny and forget a mad lover. Doing whatever she can to just push the thought of them away. and also about finding herself and accepting her self after she no longer has this lover which she was probebly dependent on.

    BloodLuston April 05, 2003   Link
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    General Comment

    I think this and Miss Ann Thrope are probably my favourite My Ruin songs...it's so good damnit!

    "My revenge on you will not kill you...it will make you want to kill yourself!" Ahh man. That's some good shit.

    Anyways, as for an actual interpretation of the song...I agree with Bloodlust in that she is trying to forget about a former lover. This person is with someone else and she's feeling bitter about it, and apparently they never gave her any real sense of closure after the breakup and left alot of things unanswered...and then she decides that she can't forget about them so she's gonna kick their ass in some form or fashion.

    RAWR just listen to the song.

    ThatSpookyTallChickon June 07, 2006   Link
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    My Interpretation

    I think this song is about Burton C Bell who Tairrie used to date. I think that most of the songs on the Speak and Destroy album are about him, especially June 10th. Tairrie hinted at this in an interview anyway.

    iknowmyusernamesuckson October 15, 2010   Link

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