Under a red sky, I told her, "I want to die." And how I cry with no concrete reason why and have bad dreams every night, or every other night. I feel sickly, like I am lost at sea. And all the girls I used to know are high on ecstasy, and they're much happier than me, I think. She told me things would pass, like the girls who smoke the grass, like huffing gas out in the dried-up meadow grass under stars that shine like glass in the sun. And she said, "Would you shoot me in the head?" We shot the breeze and had malt liquor instead. Passed out together in the shed or the bed - I don't recall. I said: "What better way to put myself in my place? What better way to get out of this goddamn place? Sometimes I feel like I'm stuck in this fucking place. What better way to put myself in my place?" She said: "Broken hearts are easy to hide. Broken hearts are easy to ignore. See, when you break your heart, nothing really breaks. Look at me, and look at you: 18, and dead - At 16 you were almost dead. Just sleep with me in my bed, and don't say those things you said."


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    this is one of my favorite songs, just...well, its already been described. i hate myself just tells the sorrow into each of there songs, real music, when this music wusnt heard of. (the whole emo thing) you cant really get songs like these from other bands like my chemical romance, FoB, FFTL, dashboarde confssional. its totollay differnt

    i convey messageson March 22, 2006   Link
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    this song has some of the best screams i've ever heard.

    im_so_tiredon February 19, 2007   Link
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    this is my absolute favorite i hate myself song. when i hear it i can just feel his emotion pouring out, and i totally agree with every word of it. especially the "broken hearts are easy to hide. broken hearts are easy to ignore." part. when he screams it...god...i don't know what to do with myself. part of me wants to scream along with it and the other part can't move. either way, this is one of the best songs ever written.

    ZeroGirlon April 29, 2002   Link
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    this song is so so beautiful. it's one of my favorites.

    stickingtosheetson July 16, 2002   Link
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    Yeah...this is a beatiful song. I love it so much. I love all the symbomlism, and the imagery that the song creates. This is my second favorite I Hate Myelf song (next to Caught in a Flood...) Anyways, I think the meaning of this song is fairly obvious, but I shall say what this song means to me. He's talking to a friend, perhaps a girlfriend, maybe someone from the past. He's contemplating suicide...he feels like nothing is going right in his life. Pure self-loathing at its best. The only thing is, maybe the person he is talking to shares his pain. She knows how he feels so they "Pass out together in the shed or the bed." Maybe the guy feels like he deserves to die. He says. "What better way to put myself in my place." I think that is very indicative of how he already feels dead, so his reasoning is that it will not be much different once he kills himself. At the end, he just wants to be comforted...he wants to be told everything is alright, to have the past erased. Oh...I have a correction though...after he says, "Broken hearts are easy to hide, broken hearts are easy to ignore. See when you break your heart nothing really breaks." a line has been omitted. After that portion of the song, he sings, "It's just a figure of speech."

    PorcelainHopeon July 30, 2002   Link
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    I can relate to this song very easily. I hate myself is amazing every time I listen to them.

    ihatemyselfon March 04, 2003   Link
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    this song is pretty amazing.

    i feel like he read my journals and wrote this song.

    thisgirlcankillon April 20, 2003   Link
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    ( cannot be described ) >> beauty.

    alliebeeon April 21, 2003   Link
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    probably because those bands are pop punk crap

    Nick187on July 12, 2006   Link
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    haha my band are covering this song, its sooooooooooo damn good. expect an mp3 out soon.

    Greeny341on September 19, 2006   Link

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