I thought I'd seen hell
Thought I knew it all
Now I know too well
Hell is to wake up
But it makes all the difference

Tasting the tears in my mouth
Taking the weight on my shoulders
The hours and days of your life
Don't necessarily make you older

I'm sick of running away
Along these bloody streets
I'm sick of predators and prey
Of being everybody's end!

I've washed my hands of your blood
Thought it would leave me clean
But with time on my hands
It turned to mud forming this crust of sin

Now, to be truly free
I'll let it come to me
So, break me if you must
When you break this crust
Freedom is to see

Hear this voice, see this man
Standing before you I'm just a child
Just a man learning to yield

I hate these hands soaked in blood
I hate what these eyes have seen
Up to my knees in filth and mud
How it hurts to become clean

I was always on my mind
But never on my side
Run, but if you run away
You'll always have to hide
So if you need to run
Run for help!


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    This song is insane. From what I've heard this is a concept album so this probably fits in with the concept, probably the character thinking about his past, as this song revisits themes presented earlier in the album. This is my favorite song by this band.

    Vicarious_Intenton March 10, 2008   Link
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    Don't know what it means, but it kicks ass

    SatanTheSithon January 23, 2008   Link
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    It's about having to learn to accept what you've done and who you are.

    DropCon September 30, 2009   Link
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    I can relate A LOT to this song... I can say I'm now running for help.

    theturningon February 26, 2015   Link

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