Only yesterday they told me you were gone
All these normal people will I find another one?
Monkey on my back, aching in my bones
I forgot you said "One day you'll walk alone"
I said I need you, does that make me wrong?
Am I a weak man, are you feeling strong?
My heart was blackened, it's bloody red
A hole in my heart, a hole in my head?

Who will help me up?
Where's the helping hand?
Will you turn on me?
Is this my final stand?

In a dream I connot see
Tangled abstract fallacy
Random turmoil builds in me
I'm addicted to chaos

Light shined on my path,
Turn bad days into good
Turn breakdowns into blocks, I smashed 'em
Cause I could
My brain was labored, my head would spin
Don't let me down, don't give up, don't give in
The rain comes down, cold wind blows
The plans we made are back up on the road
Turn up my collar, welcome the unknown
Remember that you said
"One day you'll walk alone"

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  • +4
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    This one is about a guy who mentored Dave Mustaine during one of his trips to rehab. The man had been clean and sober for years and then relapsed one time and ovedosed, which killed him.

    GhostOfWaron June 03, 2002   Link
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    I hate to relate everything to a woman, but, that, along with being 30 and a failure at life in general, are all I can relate to. So, I met my SoulMate and, needless to say, it went sour. I never jelled with anyone like that. She taught me alot about what needed to be changed in my life. She taught me how to love and forgive unconditionally. She brought me closer to Jesus and understanding his ways. But she turned out to be one of the most evil ruthless people I have ever met in my life. It has been a long time since it has been over and I still have not found anyone that shows me the way or that completes me the way she did. I love Dave Mustaines music. It has seved my life plenty of times.

    AGGOZZURon May 04, 2003   Link
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    This site is about what a song means to you, cherrychew22, even though you're probably long gone and won't be reading this. Let the man speak his mind.

    eversiuson December 27, 2005   Link
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    the heroin is aching in his bones. The whole song is about drug addiction.

    diolicaon August 22, 2005   Link
  • +1
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    The song is about loosing someone who has been helping you out alot. At the end of the 2nd verse its about relising you can go on by yourself. Great song

    Metal_Up_Ya_Ass_Jayon December 04, 2005   Link
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    I don't understand "In a dream I connot see Tangled abstract fallacy Random turmoil builds in me I'm addicted to chaos"

    The rest I get but.. anyone know?

    Liberion February 05, 2006   Link
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    My interpretation is that this song is about love. think about it: the lines "A hole in my heart, a hole in my head?"; "In a dream I connot see" and "Tangled abstract fallacy" can all definitely refer to love. But there are some lines I'm not sure about, such as "Monkey on my back, aching in my bones". But that's just my thoughts. Sides, I'm sure you can all agree that love is indeed chaotic, yet is keep coming back for more hahaha...

    Garaiavuon March 25, 2006   Link
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    Well, when you're high... ...things don't always make sense. To state the obvious. It's a dream-like state. I think he's talking about how he's losing control because of drug-use, but he can't help himself because he's too addicted. Without the help of his mentor, he falls off the straight and narrow.

    eversiuson April 13, 2006   Link
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    Aww.. This song has helped me so many times when I felt bad. Very deep lyrics. One of Megadeths best songs..

    Whomon August 10, 2006   Link
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    From the realms of deth: "In this song, the speaker loses someone very close to him, a dear friend who helped him through some very difficult times and was pretty much the only constant thing in his life. The speaker has been warned of this day, but he is still unprepared for it. He wonders about his chances of every finding anyone else like that in the world, and even contemplates suicide. In the final verse of the song, he becomes enlightened and realizes that this is simply another challenge in a life full of challenges. He gets his head together and goes out to face the world alone, once again."

    GhostOfWar I think you may be right. But I personally think this song means what you want it to mean. That's the beauty of a lot of megadeth songs.

    Phanaticon January 25, 2007   Link

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