The man has pseudo-friends who constantly criticize his actions. They moralize him, "teach" him and advise him to make a significant change in his life, because the way he is and what he does is not what they say it should be. They may find his life lame or immoral. They hold themselves up as role models. The man replies that he will make his own choices and decisions and he does not agree to unconditionally make himself under the influence of questionable quality advice. He justifies this by saying that there is always someone for whom he will be important, no matter what he does and no matter what he is. Although it is not said directly, I read it as meaning that he will always be important to himself in every way and he will always have his own support.
"Everyone is different and maybe that's a good thing, but you exceeded that mark 1000 times" - I remember very well how sad the words I once heard (from my peers and it was in negative context) at school made me feel.
The first time I did cocaine
The pleasure didn't really feel like pain
But I lied awake 'til 8 A.M. alone
The first time I ran away
I thought that nothing was the same
And I crawled the empty streets to greet the dawn
And every morning, there's a foul taste in my mouth
As I chew my frontal lobe, and spit the pieces out
I can't control the days
This ship is rocking, let it sway
The night just means the moon is there for you
The first time that I lied to you
It seemed so real, it felt like truth
And even now, I don't know what you believed
First time the sky fell down
It didn't even make a sound
And the blinding light kept me awake for days
And in the darkness, I can almost see your face
And I'm reminded of a time and of a place
We gave our bones away and danced until the break of day
We'd set ourselves on fire if we knew the truth
'Cause you're ablaze for me, and me for you
First time we fell asleep
The boiling water tasted sweet
The sky was getting greener every day
First time the lights went out
Your candles burned away the clouds
And bitter night turned into bitter day
And everywhere I go, I'm followed by my doubts
The echoes turn to oceans, whispers turn to shouts
Well, never mind the rain, our hair is wet, our skin is gray
And I am getting further from the truth
At least I know that you were falling too
The pleasure didn't really feel like pain
But I lied awake 'til 8 A.M. alone
The first time I ran away
I thought that nothing was the same
And I crawled the empty streets to greet the dawn
And every morning, there's a foul taste in my mouth
As I chew my frontal lobe, and spit the pieces out
I can't control the days
This ship is rocking, let it sway
The night just means the moon is there for you
The first time that I lied to you
It seemed so real, it felt like truth
And even now, I don't know what you believed
First time the sky fell down
It didn't even make a sound
And the blinding light kept me awake for days
And in the darkness, I can almost see your face
And I'm reminded of a time and of a place
We gave our bones away and danced until the break of day
We'd set ourselves on fire if we knew the truth
'Cause you're ablaze for me, and me for you
First time we fell asleep
The boiling water tasted sweet
The sky was getting greener every day
First time the lights went out
Your candles burned away the clouds
And bitter night turned into bitter day
And everywhere I go, I'm followed by my doubts
The echoes turn to oceans, whispers turn to shouts
Well, never mind the rain, our hair is wet, our skin is gray
And I am getting further from the truth
At least I know that you were falling too
Lyrics submitted by username-ben
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