Sorry

I didn't know I was the one who'd call you
This late at night
I didn't know I was the one who cared more
But I guess I won't put up a fight
When the sunlight, shines through my windows
I promise I'll still be awake
'Cause I don't really sleep much anymore
And I'm used to watching daybreak
And I wish I could love myself
As much as I love everyone else
And I'm not sure if I want to die
I just don't think that I want to stay alive
I'm sorry if this makes you sad
It's just how I feel
Because most days I don't notice I'm awake
Or that any of this is real