Thoughts

Thoughts,
Sometimes I just can't control my thoughts
No medication's ever made them stop
All I think about is everything I'm not
Instead of everything I got
'Cause I'm scared they're all laughing
So I make the joke first
If I beat them to the punchline
Then I can't get hurt
Yeah I swear to God I'm trying
But I don't know how to be
How to be a good friend to me
'Cause sometimes I just feel like I'm a freak
When I wake up, I just don't like what I see
All the way from my head, right down to my feet
I wish that I thought differently
'Cause I'm scared they're all laughing
So I make the joke first
If I beat them to the punchline
Then I can't get hurt
Yeah I swear to God I'm trying
But I don't know how to be
How to be a good friend to me
Change
Wonder if I'll ever really change
'Cause I'm scared they're all laughing
So I make the joke first
If I beat them to the punchline
Then I can't get hurt
Yeah I swear to God I'm trying
But I don't know how to be
How to be a good friend
To the voice inside my head
That's telling me I'm okay
Entertain it for a second
Then I push it away
Yeah I swear to God I'm trying
But I don't know how to be
How to be a good friend to me
Thoughts
Sometimes I just can't control my thoughts